我不是你想像那么勇敢

有时候太坚强 笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏 歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处 OH...
你不要追问我 还缺了些什麽

Chorus #
每个人都有梦 幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站 OH...
我强问我自己 现在还没有个答案

Chorus *
我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

Back to chorus #, *

我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢...

exam woes...

Had my first paper today, it was quite bad... SIGHHH... It was quite demoralising actually, to realise that sometimes putting in your best is just not enough. :( I really did, and I really thought I can do better this time, BUT..oh well, that's life i guess. Things don't always go your way.

The guy sitting beside me left when I haven't even started on the 20 marks essay question. Like WTH?!?!?! And after that people kept leaving, and I was still struggling...

Am not trying to be emo, just tired... I will be fine, i will still do my best for the rest of my papers. :) To all those having exams, ALL THE BEST!


Rachel Liang Wen Yin - Wo Bu Shi Ni Xiang Xiang Na Me Yong Gan -

Bird in the house yo!

It's soo hot these 2 days!! I just went out of the house to run an errand just now, and I came home sweating. The moment I got into the car, my glasses fogged up due to the heat! Woahh... The weather makes me feel so sleepy, everytime I open my books my eyes feel like closing, my brain feels fuzzy... Ok, I admit, it's not all about the weather, but oh well! It does make me feel less like studying...

My house had an unexpected guest yesterday night!! Haha. We had just returned home from my grandma house, and I was opening the balcony door when I suddenly heard this fluttering sound. I, personally, is VERY scared of hearing fluttering sounds. It usually means there's either a flying cockroach, beetle or a moth. And if you look at my profile, I am afraid of most things that can fly. Anything, everything. I saw this black thing with wings fluttering, and my first thought was "oh shit is that a humongous cockroach?!?!!?!?!?!?" I ran off, then came back again to check out what the thing was. (See how courageous I am? wahaha!) The thing flew up and I could see clearly, it was a bird. A small little bird. It couldn't fly very high, so I assumed it was injured. I quickly told my parents that there's an injured bird in our balcony. They went like "huh bird??" cos it's like one in a million chance that a bird would fall in our balcony.

They went with me to see, and the poor bird kept fluttering around, like it couldn't fly high. We decided to give it fruits to eat, and some water. Me and my mum cut a peach, and placed it inside a container with some water. But when I went back out, the bird was gone already. We looked around the balcony, but there was no sight of it. We placed the container outside, as we were thinking that it might fly back again. Just then, I turned and saw the bird flying inside our living room. I gave out this shriek and told my mom "IT'S INSIDE THE HOUSE!!!" Haha! My parents were kind of thrilled, cos we seldom get such visitors! I wasn't too thrilled though, cos I do not like things that fly!! Haha, unless it's tame and behaves, not one that flies all over the place!!! It started to fly from one end of our house to the other end, perching itself on the curtain rod. Each time it flew, I would shriek and bend my body low. Haha, I did that continuosly for what felt like a million times, until I was sweating all over. HAHAHA. I couldn't understand why my parents could just watch it fly here and there like they a bird flying around our house everyday. I was so scared that it would just land on my head, or decide to peck at me. Hahaha, I'm just being paranoid I know. Anyway, my mum says it's a hummingbird(that explains all the fluttering i heard), and we are guessing that it's a baby one. It's quite tiny and small, and it's yellow in colour! Quite cute actually. I took many photos of it, but it was too small to show up nicely.

It kept flying to and fro for the whole night; was until we went to sleep did it perch itself on the living room curtain rod and stopped flying. It was sleeping i guess... We left a small nightlight for it, but when my dad looked for it in the morning it was gone already. Oh well, although it was just a short visit, was still quite exciting! :) It makes me feel a teeny weeny less scared of birds that come near to me now! haha. There's still a little mystery though, if it could fly so well to and fro around our house, why was it fluttering around in my balcony and wasn't able to fly out? And the door of our balcony was open wide throughout before we went to bed, so why didn't it fly out immediately at the first chence, but chose to stay in our house? Ahhh..I guess it's a mystery only the bird knows.. (my mum kept insisting that it likes our house though :))

Ok! shall zoom off to do my studying now...Bye people!! :)

Have nothing much to blog actually, but shall just make a short one! Today is the last day of school! And it happens to have the worst timetable of all. Had lessons consecutively from 10 to 6, shagged!! And I took cab to school again, cos I didn't want to be late for lessons. I think this is my 4th time taking cab down already?! Sigh, I just can't seem to be on time, a habit I find so hard to change!!! humph. Lazy me!! Oh well, but lucky I had my neighbourhood neighbour who took down with me twice, so we could share costs!! Hehehe :P Glad to have a neighbourhood neighbour! (who seemed to have a larger tendency to be late this sem ahh..haha! If you are reading this, what happened to the on-time you??? hahaha influenced by me issit :P)

Last day of school, but there's this feeling of dread... Exams are coming in 8 days!!! Goshh... I know I've said this alot of times, but time flies this sem!!!!!!! Seemed to have been over in the blink of an eye.. Year 3 next year, OMG. Can't believed that I've come that far. Hope I can survive well for my remaining sems in NUS :)

Been hooked onto this game on fb recently, called "Restaurant City". Muahaha. It's quite a no-brainer, but it's still fun in a way i guess.. I like to see my points and rank increase!! hehe :P We can also trade ingredients with each other, to exchange for the ones that you need to cook the dish that you want. Oh and I like to decorate my restaurant, so fun! haha :)

Ok, shall end this very random post here! haha. Listen to my blog song ok!! It's nice! :)

Sometimes, I wonder what people are thinking when there's no need to use their brains. Like for example, when you are on the train, when you are showering, when you are lying on the bed before you fall asleep... What do you think about?? For me, I realise I'm perpetually humming and thinking about songs 90% of the time. When I'm bored, or when I'm doing monotonous stuffs, songs will start running through my head. It's like an urge I can't control. Haha! Was humming halfway today in the toilet when I suddenly wondered what do other people think about. So I thought I'll blog about it! even though my blog can't reach out to everyone out there..hahaha...

I'll be going to Poland from 29th June to 9th July!!! Wheeeeee!!! :) So excited to go to an European country!! Will be going with NUSCO for a competition, then touring around for the next few days. Haha yeah I know it sounds weird going to Europe for a CO competition, but yeah we are!!! :D:D Can't wait to go!! This would be my first time going for an overseas competition, and I'm sure there'll be lotsss of effort required for our training beforehand... The feeling would be so different from usual touring i guess, with the mixture of some nervousness and anxiousness (are there such words?? :P). But I'm quite sure it'll still be a memorable experience, and hope it'll be FUN!!! :))

I shall go off to study now...ciaos!! To all who are mugging, JIA YOUUUU!!! Just do your best... I WILL!!!!! :)


带我走到遥远的以后
带走我一个人自转的寂寞
带我走
就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕带我走

14 April 2009

Today felt like a holiday! haha. Didn't touch my books at all today, cos i promised myself a break before the mugging period starts. Am officially done with all my tests and assignments, yippiee!! :) That, also concludes my year 2 semester 2. It's kind of scary how fast time flies, I can't seem to get a hold on it. I guess this sem hasn't been too busy, at least I felt ok with the workload, though I must admit that level 3000 mods are really tough. I feel the strain and the stress, much more than I felt previously. Taking 4 level 3000 mods tgt is really quite heavy and tedious! Must really muggg hard for the finals, I MUST do well this sem!!!!!!!!!!! Competition is scary.

Went to watch "Confessions of a Shopaholic" yesterday. It was quite good! Funny, yet touching towards the end. I like the main leads!! The girl is pretty, and the guy is not too bad looking, but I think I find him good looking because of the movie. Don't think I'll be attracted if I didn't watch it, hehe. Watching it made me want to shop shop SHOP!! hhahaha!


I want to blog about my idol, one that I've liked since secondary school. Ahaha pls dunnnnnn roll your eyes!! Yea I know I'm probably a little too old to go gaga over idols, but I recently came across him on tv, and I wanted to SHARE!! :)Heehee...

So, his name is 王仁甫(Zax Wang) , a part of a band called 5566! hahahahahaha... I know they are super old school already, but I still quite like them! I am sooo loyal, you see? haha! It's good you know! You see, if you are my friend, I will be very loyal to you too! :)) Anyway, he got married recently, and I came across him in this show with his wife(季芹) talking about how they got together, how they stayed tgt despite all the obstacles. Oh, for those who know who is he, they were together for about 7 years before they had their first child, so it's not really shotgun! :)
i googled for his photo...

HAHAHA!not the best looking, but he looks better on screen la...hahaha!

They have 2 children, one girl one boy. Yeah, they had children before getting married. But oh well, that is not the point. What I wanted to share about was their wedding! I read on the net that Zax Wang actually spent "slightly less than $100,000 US" on their wedding, which is totally OMG!! 完全娱乐 showed their whole wedding, including the before and after. When I first saw the actual wedding, I felt so touched. Zax Wang and Ji Qin both kept crying, and even Ji Qin's father cried. Zax Wang is always joking in front of the camera, but during his wedding could see that he took it very seriously and respectingly. It's evident to anyone watching that his tears are so real, so full of sincerity and happiness. They filmed them rehearsing, and even during then he was crying. It's kind of like a face of him that I've never seen before. All along, he was the humourous and funny guy who kept cracking jokes and making fun. To see him standing there, waiting to receive the love of his life is such a blissful sight.

click on the link to watch if you are interested, hehe!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g5rEAutBePI

I want a wedding like that in future, I want a husband like that too!!! HAhaha! From the whole process of their filming, it's totally obvious how in love they are together, and how much he dotes on her. The way he looks at her is superrr sweet, something that no one can fake. Can see that he really treasures and loves Ji Qin, which is what every girl wants of their other half. Just that simple. :) And he is always so funny at the right times!! haha!

Did a video for my aunt's bday, and I took photos of some of my baby photos!! haha :P let me share 2 here...

Cuteeeeeeeee!!! no? Hahaha! :) I love the first pic... my butt looks oversized, hehe :P

--------------------------------------------

幸福的起点 by STYLE

传说在恋人们心和心之间

系着一条叫感情的线

当两个人的距离越来越远

那份纠缠却紧紧相连

我们的咖啡融化寂寞的夜

少了酒精我却有点醉

这里空荡的气味让人心碎

人群之间看不到坚决

*花开在春天幸福的起点

擦肩过的人悄悄传递着爱恋

在你离开以前请再看一眼

有没有什么值得留念

黄昏的街灯背着我的爱情

丢进回忆藏不住伤心

传说是已过期的黑白电影

不知何日再重新上演

*花开在春天幸福的起点

擦肩过的人悄悄传递着爱恋

幸福来临以前别轻易改变

会有个人陪你到终点

哦　哦　ＮＯ　ＮＯ　ＮＯ　哦　ＮＯ　　耶

也许都不需抱歉 就让它错过　

是另一个幸福的起点　

哦．．．．．．

在你离开以前　请再看一眼

有没有什么值得留念

爱过就永远不会改变

Photos and latest happenings!

Photos from Celia's bday party!! Finally, I can upload all the photos!! Am only putting up those with me hehehe... abit of narcissm here :P The rest can be seen from fb :)

Me with the bday girl!! (with a nice heart photo frame haha!) The theme of her party is quite obvious ehh? :) Her closer friends in uni, we are kinda like a clique i guess...These are some of the people that keep me going on in uni!! :))) Us again!

05A7Bees!! :) (minus yy though)With our form teacher! HAHA joking la..But he wore so formally, plus his twisted perm(ahahaha), he really looked so much older!

See! Look like teacher and student right!! :P

Me and Joy, the teacher-in-progress! Haha! Got to know her much better in J2 and when I worked with her for relief teaching! Veryyyyy motherly and nice!! :)))

The non-geographers!! Spent so much of my J2 breaks with them, can't imagine without them around in ny!! Love! :)

Five of us with different uniforms!! nyjc, vjc, njc, tjc and cedar!

Gwee Peng!! Haha..My first-3months classmate cum uni buddy cum neighbourhood neighbour!!


KL and me! Me and kj doing some weird pose, haha! The number of weirdddd ideas she has is really...alot! HAHA

Part of the A7Bees. It think this was the first photo I took, and you'll be able to see from my hair. Was rather neat and tidy at first, then got so messy after that. ahaha.

And so, that shall conclude my post for Celia's party! Had fun catching up and chatting with friends! :) Hmmm so whose is next??

------------------------------------------------

Shall go on to talk about CO! Had our AGM on Saturday, there's now a new EXCO! Though I must say, the whole meeting took a looooooooong time!!!!!!!!!!! We started at 3 plus, and ended around 8 plus. OH OH OH!!!!! I saw my EC!!!!!! Was quite shocked to see him there, and superrr excited when I realised he had to present on admin stuffs for the previous concert. First time hearing him speak so much!!!! OMG!!! And I totally sound like a crazy teen-girlish fan here, pls excuse me! Can't control my excitement wahahaha. Kept twittering to KL about him, can see she got a little annoyed after some time. Haha! Eh, I havent seen him for so long already! Pardon me ok! :) Hearing him was a little......oh well! I prefer him playing his instrument haha :) But it should be the last time that I'm seeing him, since I'll be leaving co already...awww...

Congrats to the new EXCO!!! I think the next batch are really quite lucky to be under QL and J, they are so nice and funny ppl! It should be fun with them heading the whole orchestra :) Ok, to speak a fair word, the 35th EXCO also did quite well. I guess most of their efforts were backstage, not shown to the orchestra. Well, I understand that it's not easy to run such a big group of ppl, and I believe they have done their best. Their work is still appreciated by the members, will not be forgotten.

-----------------------------------------------------

Went to 扫墓 (pay my ancestral respects) today together with my family. About 20 of us, we rented a minibus which fetched us to and fro. Our family started this "tradition" about 3 years ago, and I think it's a great practice. In the past years, we always had to car pool, having like 4 or 5 cars going at the same time. We always had parking problems, and it was hard for our cars to go into the small roads too. Now the minibus just drops us at the nearest possible distance, and just walk in without having to worry about parking. We went to my great-grandmother's tomb first, reached there about 8. I still remember when I was young, it was like a maze trying to get to her tomb. The grass was high, there were many holes and sticks on the ground which made it very hard for us to walk. It's now much easier to get in, as we found a shorter route, and the grass is now always cut nicely. However, I do miss a little of the times when we had to watch out for one another as we trudged through the "jungle maze", holding onto each other's hands to help. We used to have to avoid stepping on other tombs, which is a form of disrespect. It's so much easier now, but yet seemed to have lost the "feel" from the past.

Paid our respects, and we moved on to Guang Ming Shan. My grandfather, big uncle and cousin's grandfather's ashes are kept there. There were manyyy people praying too, and the whole place was super smoky. Alot of our eyes kept tearing, and it was hard to keep them open. We had to place our offerings and joss sticks outside, then go into a place where all the ashes are kept. This sense of sadness and sorrow just gets to me whenever I go there. Sighh. Always feel like tearing when I see my grandfather and big uncle's photos. Although it has been years since they left us, they will always be a part of our family, and we'll always remember them in our hearts. :) I think, when you experience the feeling of losing someone, you tend to treasure happiness and what you have more. BUT! Please don't wait till then, for it would be too late. Treasure all you have NOW, whether good or bad. It's all part of life, to make us into better people, make us into who we are and who we will be.

----------------------------------

Went to IKEA after that, finally got the table and chair I needed for my room! yay. Will be delivered to my house on tuesday, can't wait! :)

---------------------------------

Goodnight my readers! :)

ungracious people

whoa...just reached home not long ago.. Was doing soc psych proj with Celia and N at Eusoff Hall. I like EH! I think it's quite clean and comfy :) We managed to do the finishing touched for our proj, yayy! :) Anw, our project is really quite cute, though it's quite tedious. We had to do up a storybook, aimed at children 10 and below. Thinking of the storyline, drawing up the pictures, colouring the pictures, they all felt a little like doing art and craft! haha. My art has never been good, but I did enjoy the process of doing up this storybook! Although I must admit that we spent alooooot of time on it, and I do hope our efforts will pay off!!!!



Just now when I was on my way home, met with 2 types of not so gracious people, and they were both women! The first one was when I was on the train. The train was had just left the previous station and was on its way to my station, when the lady beside me answered a call. And oh my goodness, the moment she opened her mouth to talk, I smelt her breath. With no doubts, she has a smoker's breath. It was OMG-ly stinky, not that I'm trying to be mean or rude. I have ever smelt such a smell, but hers is really tops. ewwwwww. I stood up immediately, not even waiting for the train to reach my stop. Seriously, I wonder if she knows. I felt so disgusted, I bet it turns many other people off too. That is why, it's really a no-no to smoke. Totally uncool, totally disgusting!! But I believe it's partly her problem too. If you are a smoker, you should jolly well make sure you have mints or whatever to freshen your breath when you are outside. Shouldn't this be a form of social courtesy?



The other not-so-gracious lady I met was when I was walking to the control station to tap my card. I was carrying a paper bag, and I lifted my hand to take my card out of my bag. I heard a sound, and realised that someone had knocked into my bag. I turned my head to look at the person, ready to apologise, to see her staring at me with a look that plainly shows how annoyed she was. She even made this loud "tsk" sound, you know, those kind that aunties make. (I know I do write it, but I don't really use it really. Even if I do, it's usually when I'm joking with my friends; I don't purposely "tsk" at people I don't know.) Honestly, I find that sound quite rude, especially when the person makes it LOUD to make sure you heard it. So, my mouth was already saying "ssss...(orry)" , but upon seeing her rude gesture, I immediately swallowed my apology. I would rather swallow and choke than apologise to such ungraceful people. ewwwwwww.



And so, that concludes my two encounters with two ungracious "ladies"!

Ohh myy...I wanted to upload the photos, but once again, there's some internet error! :( sighh.. Shall try another time then. I wonder what's the problem???

EC looks different! oh my.. He looks so much fatter now!! :(( (was browsing thru his fb photos..ahaha) But oh well, I guess he still has his charisma :P