I HATE EXAMS. :(

am blogging this 5 hours after my first paper, and it SUCKED!:( SIGHHH so traumatizing! After all the mugging, I dont think i will do well. that's life ain't it? Sometimes i really think that I'm numbed to it already, ever since i came into uni. Hahah *sad smile* Oh well, let it not scare me for the rest of my papers; it shall just be a motivation for me to work EVEN harder :) And to all those who haven't taken their papers yet, don't worry too much! things would be fine! I always manage to survive somehow, albeit not that gracefully, ahaha =X

just heard "careless whisper" on the radio, niceeeee! It's always damn SHUANG to hear it play on the radio, even though i have it in my ipod and i can listen to it anytime i want, LOL. It's an oldie that I never seem to get sick of! :) Remember hearing it for the first time on Chao Ji xing Guang Da Dao, and it caught my ears.. I love nice songs! (:

Health psych paper up next, gogogo!!

ROARRRRRRRR! I find it so hard to absorb all the stuff that I need to, how how how!!! The stress is mounting... time is running out... STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! :( PID exam at 9am on saturday, hope i'll manage to finish studying everything by then =X

On a happier note, I finally got a new phone!!! :) So happppppppy! It's uber cute and pretty, it's the lollipop phone! AHAHA! It's meaningful to me cos it's the first phone that I've ever bought!!!! Yea yea i know it's quite unbelievable..My previous phones were either given to me by my relatives, or $0 from Singtel, not of my choice! So THIS is the first phone that i've had by choice, and I'M LOVING IT!! :D


TADAH~~!!!! my love now<3
It's a korean-made phone, and it can type korean!! HAHA i'm so bringing it to Korea!!! Have been wanting a flip phone since ages ago, but none of them caught my eye.. I realised that Korean dramas often use flip phones, guess they are the norm over there? It's sooo hard to find a nice flip phone here, but finally finally :)

Alright enough gushing about my new phone, it's time to hit the books! (AGAIN, groannnnn). concentrate concentrate!!!!

Love is Punishment - KWill

Perhaps if I have never encountered you, it would have been the best
If I had need been living in another world
If I had need to become strangers in life
It will not have been left with this inflicting pain in my heart

Each day & each day forgetting you
Each day & each day abandoned you
In the midst of my heart deeply concealing something that I can't really openly shout about of my love

It seems all along I have always thought that love was bliss & happiness
Unable to beyond words that love is heaven's render punishment
I just have to love you & my heart will shiver & tremble
This is just living by wiping off tears

My mind I have already forgotten you
My speech I have already forgotten you
Occasionally drinking to drunken stupor
But afraid that I will utter my love for you
Really fear that

It seems all along I have always thought that love was bliss & happiness
Unable to beyond words that love is heaven's render punishment
I just have to love you & my heart will shiver & tremble
This is just living by wiping off tears

Dream will I able to love you ?
Crying & weeping to my sleep
Awake, each day return to that of the former

Love is to love you
When you aren't around, stealing mutter to say i love you
Afraid that when you heard that, you will run away
Obscure silence inadvertently in loving you

(credits http://www.nautiljon.com/paroles/k-will/love+is+punishment.html)

Will be going to KOREA for grad trip instead of taiwan, WHOOHOO!! :D :D Not that I am not happy to go tw, just that KOREA seems to be an even better choice! The number of days that we will be going is the same, the price is about the same, just that we will be going on tour and everything will be planned nicely for us! :) Think all of us were in a state of shock when we booked on Sunday, cos the idea of going KOREA just popped out suddenly, whilst all along we had been planning for tw. But no need for all the hair-pulling planning anymore, yayness! The trip will be from 19-26th May, around $1300 each, following Focal Travel agency. I will be going with Celia, Gui Ping, Ying Ying and Zhi Min;and we'll be in odd number! Thought it would be better to have even number of people going, hopefully at least one more person will be able to join us? hahaha! My dear friends reading this, if you are interested to come along let me know okay! (:

That is going to be a motivation for me during this mugging period, I get so happy and excited thinking of it! :) Am so into Korean culture nowadays, it's soooooo wonderful to be able to visit the country! Actually I ever toured KOREA with my family when I was in primary 5, which was like 10 years ago?! Wasn't into their culture then, and my memories of the trip are rather blurred...hehe. Shall take manymanymanymany pictures this time round, but not so sure about the shopping though. Think things should be rather expensive there uh...

My last exams in NUS, shall do my best! gogogo!

feeling a little emo and moody and sad and unwilling, but i will be fine soon (:

one of my fave english songs now...on replay mode

Just one last dance

gdnites all! jiayou for this mugging period!! (:

15.04.2010.

TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL.



byebye.
:(

yayy end of all my assignments for this semester!! handed 2 reports on tuesday, slept like only 3 hours the night before! but I'm so glad it's all done, my last assignments in NUS! Into studying mode now, but still have the urge to treasure every last moments that I have in this school :) Took many random shots today, of random places, with random memories... It's such a weird feeling to graduate, honestly. A mixture of happiness, sadness, anxiousness, apprehensiveness, insecure, excited.....

Have been planning and researching for grad trip to taiwan, but nothing's really decided yet! Hope to at least get the dates and the number of people going latest by next week! I guess this will be part of my motivation as I study :))

Have an 8am tutorial tmr, shall go off to bed now! Annyonghi jumushipsiyo!(googled that, hope it's correct! :P)



有些感觉，以为已经淡忘了， 但再次提起才发现， 原来还在心里。。。

Finally have some time to update, shall talk about Quintessence 2010!!! This year's songs were definitely more challenging, but yet i feel more touching. At least to me :) my faves were definitely those before the interval, but i guess those after the interval were more able to showcase our skills?

3 days before the actual day, we had a rehearsal at the UCC. It was more fun this time round cos I stayed over at kj's room! (again! ooops haha :P) Our rehearsal started at 12pm, went on all the way to 10pm. Although we didn't have to practice the whole time, but somehow I just felt tired! By the time we were finished with the dry run for the whole concert, my back was aching and my butt was hurting! lol!

Took shuttle bus back with ky, and the BLUR(as usual) her brought me to take the wrong bus! haha!! we had to get down and wait for another bus, but at least we reached our busstop in the end, HAHA. Met some CO ppl for supper, thanks to enoch for the treat! :) OH and I realised, LIME JUICE and CHEESE together tastes like VOMIT. Hahaha totally grossssssss!!! =X But the supper was nice overall la! And supper was fun with all the crapping and gossips! LOL! I think, co ppl are like SUPER gossipers, regardless of gender! I suspect all our times at pracs are spent sniffing out for gossips, HAHAHA! Too bad that I have to leave just as co life gets more happening, Sigh! But these gatherings and activities really make me enjoy and treasure my last sem in school even more, and I feel that I can look back at the memories and smile :) HTHT with kj after that, and girl always remember that things are never too late ok! And also, better late than never :) It’s good that you give thought to things,persevere!!!!!!


ok fast forward to the concert! it was like a mass photoshoot session before going up onstage, hahaha! Kept taking photos, and photos and photos :D Mr Lum always say, it's useless to keep practicing in the moments just before going on stage, so I guess i just gave up practising and enjoyed myself!! hehehe :) I still rmb the moments just before going on stage, when we are all waiting at the backstage. Every year, i will feel the urge to pee HAHAHA, cos i always feel sooo nervous!! I hate the waiting! And this year, due to some reasons, our performance started late, i think 20minutes past the actual time. I really find it a torture to sit around and watch the clock ticking by, wondering when will we go out. But I must say it's super exciting to hear the murmuring from the crowd, to know that there are loads of people waiting for us to perform!! :D So fun!


Overall, i would say that the concert was a BLAST! Everything went rather smoothly and well :) There were some glitches here and there, but aiya, part and parcel of performances! Who doesn't EVER screw up? There was one part that I suddenly felt SUPER touched, the moment when our soloist turned back to bow to us. Honestly, I could feel the tears coming to my eyes. I don't know why too, but I guess felt the sincerity behind that bow? So glad that we didn't screw things up for him, so glad that all his efforts went well! I just had this thought that everyone's efforts did not go down the drain, all our hard work was paid off in that thank-you bow. Not just for the solo song definitely, but everything!! I guess it was just the 点 of the moment, and I suddenly felt the bond between the orchestra. SERIOUS OK!it was a very WOAHHH moment for me :)) Oh and when xt went up on stage to present the flowers, super duper sweet!!!!! My friend said they looked shy, heheh!


I probably tell myself this every year, but this time i really REALLY think that it will be my last ANNUAL performance with NUSCO! REALLY!!! HAHAHAHAHA! Doubt I will come back as an alumni, BUT THEN AGN, impossible things did become possible, so I shall not say too much about it anymore! LOL. Even I myself feel sheepish when I tell others that yea I'm performing AGAIN. :D No matter what, NUSCO left me with alot of memories, and stage experiences that I will never forget. <3


I'm left with the last week of school, the last week of lessons before i graduate!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGG!!! I'm going to bring my camera around with me for the remaining days, and snap pictures of anything, everything! So muchhhhhhh memories in NUS! And i know this is cliche, but I just want to say, I'm proud to say that I am from NUS :))