random updates

I want to blog, but there are so many thoughts fluttering around in my mind, I dunno wad do I want to say...

But one thing for sure, I think I'm hooked onto my computer. a.r.g.h. Have the urge to turn it on everyday, be it just for random things like msn or bloghopping. It's so irritating, it's like an addiction. I shall really kick the urge to turn it on!!! My dear friends, if you see me on msn, pls ask me to leave ok!!haha!! esp when it's in the wee hours of the morning. My sleep cycle is really quite affected; I feel so guilty when I wake up so late every morning :(

Had my abnormal presentation, which was still okay i guess. But i still find it very funny about J going on and on about the font and background colour i chose. HAHA! "You know, you shouldn't use blue for the background!! It's too dark, should keep it simple because this is a scientific presentation!" ahahaha. And "Cannot use red for the headings!!!! Many people don't like red eh!" HAHA aiyooo. I never really thought so much about such things, although I am really quite fine with anything. The "tsk" thing was, he was more bothered over such details, he didn't take out the additional slides that I asked him to. TSKKK. But his 'zai-ness' really saved us alot la, haha! The way he fielded ALL the questions from the floor was like WOW. Can see the amount of information he has stored in his brain, and he was so confident! Cool eh! If only I can be like that too....

Oh! and social psych presentation!! Turned out to be much better than what we expected, very smooth and within the time limit too! :) The last part of our skit was really quite funny ehh.. :) I am glad to have the members in our group, our all-girls team!! Girl POWER!! Haha! We work together honestly much better than I expected, and they are all nice people who does their share of the work :) yayy! And the way P described the guys in our tutorial was super funny!! AHAHA :D *winks to celia and gp* We still have one more project due this friday, jia you to us!!

Hoho. This blog entry turns out to be much more cheerful than I thought it would be. Ha! :) I'm just writing what comes into my mind, just going on with the flow of thoughts...

Wanted to upload photos, but for some reason I can't seem to!! Keep telling me error. Oh well, I shall upload them on my next entry then. But anw, went for Celia's 21st celebration on Saturday, and I loved her theme! haha! I don't have to say what it is, you can just see from the photos. Anw I thought it was quite a great party; managed to catch up with some old frens. Managed to take tonsss of photos too!

Await the photos I'll upload ok! Haha! :) Signing off here...good night all!!

Shall make this a short one, as I need to catch on my webcasts. Haha, have procrastinated for long enough already. That's the thing about webcasts; you have a choice not to attend lectures, or even if you go, you may have the tendency not to pay as much attention. Just because there is webcast.

I turned on my computer yesterday, purposely wanting to blog. had some thoughts floating around my mind that I wanted to note down. But, spent about an hour blog-hopping again. Ha, my nosey character gets into work. Those blogs that I came onto are really quite shocking to me. I never really believed how rampant pre-marital sex was, and how high the rates are for teenage pregnancies. I guess, all along the friends around me have not been the kind that will treat this sort of thing so lightly. At least, I couldn't tell la, haha. But when I was reading random blogs of some teenage girls, many of them were either pregnant or had kids. All of them were either my age, or one/two years younger than me. I'm really quite appalled at their courage and bravery to step into such an unknown territory. Although most of them are married, I really wonder, how much do they or their other half treasure their marriage? They are all so young, and I think most of them have stopped studying and are working instead. Is this the life that they really want? To work for the rest of their lives for the next 30 to 40 years? And with the stiff competition for jobs nowadays, how are they going to fight with all the university graduates? I really hope that they do have plans for the future, that they know what they are doing.

A few of them seem genuinely happy, but dun mind me being cynical. Will they continue to be as happy few years down the road? Some will, but I guess there will be some who will regret their decisions. Already, some of them expressed certain regrets of their actions on their blogs, but they have already chosen the road that they would not be able to turn back on. Yesterday, I was reading about this girl my age who has 2 baby girls. It is very obvious from her blog that she is not happy with her bf at all, who does not seem to bother or care enough for her. She was aware of the problem, which already existed when she had her first child. AND YET, she still went on to have a second child with her bf, when she blatantly wrote in her blog that her relationship with her bf was on the rocks. I really really wonder what is her mindset, what she is thinking. Of course, I admit that a blog might not reveal her truest feelings, and I'm only looking at her one-sided account. Probably she has other reasons that made her continue to stick with her bf, I dunno. Being single, I can't see her point of view, and I believe that there are many better guys out there, why hold onto one that is not suitable for you??

I said I wanted to keep this entry short, and I shall. Many things in this world happen for no reason, and for some things, there is really no need to ask 'why'. But I seriously give my blessings to all these young mummies out there, and hope that they will lead happy lives. In life, what is more important than to be happy and healthy? Happiness can help you overcome many obstacles. :)

and to all the ppl reading this blog, stay happy and cheerful! Start everyday day with a smile :)

photos!!!

It's been nearly a week since I last updated! This week has been hectic-ly busy, and I'm just TGIF!!! :) Just for this week, has handed in one essay, one project and finished with one project presentation today! Whee~ I so want to sleep!!! ZZZzzzzz....

Was looking through my previous posts, and I realised I haven't put up any photos for very long!!! So, I shall not bore the whoever readers I have here, and put up some photos!! :))

Photos taken on 7th March, NUSCO Allure concert day!

KL and me! :)

The 3 fans with Mr NUSCO. HAHAHA!

Karin, my dizi senior! She made a Dizi pouch for each of us and gave to us on the day of the concert. With our initials on it too, so sweet of her!! :) Can see the effort and thoughts she put in, really appreciate it! And i love her dress style, has her own taste and dress sense, 很有自己的风格！

The 3 musketeers! muahaha.

YY and me! :)

Karin, the wonderwoman who put in soooo much effort in practising she managed to perform on stage for SUONA after just a little more than a sem, starting from a total newbie. I salute you! (although i still think she looks really really young!! look like sec 3 right?!?!?! HAHA :P)
Me with Jeffery the government and the future NUSCO leader. HAHA.


Us and yx. Although we did have some unhappiness and what-nots... he's still our fellow dizi-cian la. And I think he is a significant part of my nusco memories, mr president. Haha.



During intermission, us with our beautiful flowers! I was baking under Enoch's jacket :X

The NYCO gang! Really thank ZH, CH and Elain for rushing down even though they had a performance earlier. As ZH said, that's what friends are for. :) THX!(for the millionth time HAHA)

HAHA I took YY's idea for this photo! HOHO! So cute right :P

The stuffs given by Karin, Enoch and KL! I must say , the Kinder Joy was YUMMY!!! :D

Me with my flowers!! HAHAHA!

I don't have the photos taken with Chen Yeh's camera!!! Haha I know u'll read this, send to me sometime okk! :P Didn't mange to take a photo with KJ too!! Haiyo..And my family!!!!! I didn't take a photo with them!!! TSK. How forgetful of me :((

Photos taken on 庆功宴!!(my mum was asking me and my dad what's the english translation for this, and we had no idea. haha. Post-concert celebrations??)

Us with Liu Dan, the emcee for our concert!
YAYY! photo with Mr Lum our dearest conductor!

A photo with Yirong! :)

Enoch, Mr photographer/chemist/dizi fanatic. HAHA! And i was wondering why my body was slanted at such an awkward angle.


Us with the pro Xiao Didi! HAHA! Sec 4 only lehh...Seems so far away, sighhh... My future psych-junior too!
Sanmin, another dizi senior who's taking direct PHD. OMG so smart can!!!
All of us :)

Finally done with all the photos!! Soo many, but they all represent the days of sweetness, happiness, fun, busy, hectic, moody, angry, tense, excitement, FRIENDSHIP :) No matter the experiences I had, I'll still cherish the moments I've had there.

Actually, shall not get into the mood of reminiscence yet. I realise that we need to go back for practices TWICE A WEEK for the poland competition. argh.argh.argh. I do hope everything will be worth it. :)

It's so late already! Shall turn in soon. Good night to all reading this! Have a great weekend!!

A last random photo of me, HEHEHE. I think my smile looks kinda wierd, but i secretly like this photo quite a bit. Hoho. Another secret, I did abit of photoshop on it. WAHAHAHA :P

Wahaha I'm really becoming a frequent blogger eh... Must say it's quite nice to come here and write short random posts, about random stuffs.

Was trying to think about something to share about my day today, but...nothing much happened. Haha. But I do have some thoughts about this clip that TFF showed us today during Social Psych lect, about prejudice and stereotypes. This clip showed a group of African children, boys and girls, being asked to choose the doll that they prefer. They were shown two dolls: One with white skin, and one with dark skin. Some of them chose the one with the dark skin, but most said that they preferred the "white" one. A number of them picked up the white doll without even much thought, which shows how natural the choice comes to them. When they were asked why, their answer was: "because it is white". Sighh. There was one African girl that really showed how prejudice is deeply etched in their society. She preferred the "white" doll, and when she was asked: "Which is the good doll?", she pointed to the "white" one. The person asked again, "Which is the bad doll?" She pointed to the "black" doll. The final question: "Can you pass me the doll that you think you are?", she picked up the "black" doll and passed it to the person asking the question. Indeed, she had the same dark coloured skin as the doll. Awwwww. It's really quite sad and shocking to see that; she's just a small little kid!! Double sighhh.

So, there is such a thing as stereotyping your own culture.

Decided not to go for the Psych Career Talks tomorrow morning, think I should really spend the time wisely at home to do my dev psych essay. I hope I've made the right choice, or at least the best choice considering my time constraints now. Press on Si Hui!!!! Do your best!!!!!

you live only once, live life to the fullest :)

Am supposed to be doing my dev psych essay, but just feel so siann...Don't feel like doing it!!!!! And I haven't signed up for my BTT yet...Haiyo... Creating trouble for myself, haha.

These week has passed by so quickly! Have no assignments/projects due this week, thought I could take a breather. In the end, spent most of my time doing pr2202 project. This project has taken up more time than I expected! Still thought it would be quite fun, but I realise it's more tedious than fun. Using the computer to design is really not one of my strengths; ok I admit, I'm totally not good at designing! Argh. Never had much artistic talent since young, haha. Just hope to get the project and my dev psych essay done sooooon!!! Will be a great load off my back :)

Many people seem quite stressed these few days. Jia you ba!! :) Hang in there and it will be over soon. Always think on the bright side, stay positive and optimistic. I think it helps to think happy thoughts, especially when you are feeling very down. Listen to more happy and upbeat songs; listening to music helps me calm my mood alot. Thinking about that reminds me: I wanna go K BOX!!!!!Haven't gone singing for a veryyyyyy long time! The last time I went must have been last year. Haiyo... 我要K 歌!!!!!! :D:D:D

there goes my BTT.......

I ACTUALLY FORGOT ABOUT MY BTT!!!!!!! DAMNNNN!!!! NOW I HAVE TO BOOK ANOTHER DATE, ARGH. HOW CARELESS AND FORGETFUL CAN I GET?!?!?! SHUCKS.

i think i need a personal assisstant to help me keep track of my schedule. anyone interested? HA.

Dedicated to "Allure 2009"

Haha, I like the title for this entry.. Sounds quite nostalgic..


Yesterday was THE concert :) Now when I think back about it, it seemed to have flashed by sooo quickly! But then, I really enjoyed myself alot, whether backstage or on stage. It was a really great experience, and I guess it marks the end of my CO performance journey. This should be the last time that I perform with CO for my friends and family. Well, I must say it was a BLASTING ending, a wonderful memory that will stay with me :):)


This might be a boring entry, cos I wanna write down all the little little details that happened, so I can look back next time and savour the moments again. WAHAHA :P

YY and I took a cab down in the afternoon, cos we were running super late!! haha. She met me ard my hse, and we managed to flag a cab quite fast. Whew! Reached UCC at 1245, only a liiiitle bit late. Haha. But actually, there wasn't a need to reach so early. Our full dress rehearsal only started at 140pm, and we had plenty of time before that. Our rehearsal wasn't too great, there were still some errors here and there. I was feeling rather anxious, but seeing that our conductor (Mr Lum) seemed quite calm, I relaxed a little too. Actually, I bet he was very anxious and nervous too, probably even more than any of us; but it's really crucial that he didn't show it, otherwise it would definitely make all of us even more uptight. I still remember when NYCO went for our SYF, I could see our conductor's hands trembling as she was conducting, and it really made me even more nervous and jittery than I originally was. Haha, it goes to show that conductors are really important, and they can really control the soul of the orchestra.


After the run-through, we had a break before lunch. Had some donuts, before going out to the cafeteria with the Suona gang. Haha, YY and I hang out with the suona ppl so much, we can be considered as part of suona liao la. :P At the cafeteria, our conversation was mostly about Jeffery and his political views of future-NUSCO. Seriously, I wonder if he has been influenced by yx too much, haha. And I really do not see the need of thinking so much and going into so many details, when everything is still so unsure. All I can say is that the job is really not an easy one, and it's never easy to be the bad guy. No matter how many aspirations you have, how strong is your desire to make the organisation a successful one, as long as you do not have the support of your members, you can't really achieve much. No one will appreciate all the backstage effort you put in, and you'll be someone that ppl will remember with dislike and distaste. I know this sounds really exaggerated, but there's truth to it. Aiya but anw, we'll support you all the way la ok!!

Back from the digression, we had dinner, then we had some time to make up. I put on make up like, once a year? Only when there's a performance will I put make up. And I remember last time when I was in choir, there were always mothers helping us to make up. Haha, so I didn't have to do it myself. (although letting them do it = having suuuuuper duper red cheeks and exagerrated eyeshadows and lipstick. HAHA. ) But people always say that when you go on stage your make up has to be realllly exagerrated, so that you will look good. Cos the stage lightings are always very bright, and when shined on your face they make you look really pale. Not sure how true is this, but well, I always make sure I have some make up on before going onstage.

We were waiting behind the curtains since 745, and we could see more and more ppl starting to come in. I always find the moments just before going stage the most nerve-wrecking. Like "ahhh...am i really able to go up there and perform???" But when I'm up there, I would feel much better. But I must really say, the audience yesterday was so cute and lively! Haha! They all started to clap and cheer when we were going up the stage. Alot of them started to shout for their frens, and the whole hall was like filled with cheers and shouts. I remember turning to yy and said: "So HIGH!!!" WAHAHAHA! Really made me feel less nervous, and I just told myself to enjoy. :)


The first half went through very smoothly, though I was really quite nervous at Hua Mu Lan. Xin Di has quite a few important parts, that we always dun seem to play very well. But apparently, we did rather well yesterday! :) Whee~~ Was worried for "Uncle" when he was playing the kou di part. And indeed.... But oh well, I guess he has tried his best, and that is enough.


Wasn't supposed to leave during the intermission, because we were not allowed to go out with our costumes. Was prepared not to go out, then I saw many people changing out of their costumes to go out! For the guys super easy can; so many of them wore shirts beneath their Sun Zhong Shan top, so they just had to take off their top!!! Not so easy for us girls can, still need to change out. But I saw someone wearing a jacket over her top, so "TING!", we can do that too!!! So yy and I chiiiiionged back to the room, grabbed our clothes and changed. Luckily, I managed to borrow a jacket from Enoch, so I just had to change my bottoms. YY decided last min that she wanted to change her top too, and under desperate conditions she actually changed inside the cupboard in our dressing room!! WAHAHA! I think Eric's face when he came into to the room to see her coming out of the cupboard superr funny! And yy was like so paiseh.. HAHA :) We ran all the way out, and managed to see the NYCO gang!! wahaha! Was worth it la huh...hehe.. wah but I was superr hot inside enoch's jacket can!!!! burningggg. HAHA! Then when we were still talking to them, some of the nusco members suddenly said "late le late le!!! quickly go back!!!!" Wah seh the whole group of us started to chiiiiong back, damn funny la! I think at that moment, I really felt bonded to nusco,haha :P We saw Mr Lum along the way, and he was like “不要跑，不要跑" HAHAHA!!! So all of us slowed down and brisk walked back instead. LOL. When I think back it was really quite funny can. And I still dun understand, why can't we go out with our costumes??????? It would have saved soooo much time can, and I needn't have been baked inside the jacket. Haha I probably burned quite a few calories, plus all the running about!


The second half was great!! My mum said the piano soloist was damnnnnnn good. And I think the zoomed in version of his hand is super coooooooool can!!!! I shall buy the DVD and watch at home. He's definitely comparable to last yr's soloist!!! WAHaha! the ERHU one i mean :)


Ended our concert with a blast!! Felt quite emotional as I was playing the ending of huang he... Was trying to savour the moment when I was playing our encore song too.. Cos.. it would most probably be the last song I would play in UCC. And even if I go with CO for the Poland competition, I would no longer be performing in front of all my family and friends. Well, though I must say that this is a good ending for my looong journey in CO. :)

Had phototaking after the concert, and the guest of honours came to talk to us. They really inflated our egos, kept saying how well we performed!! Haha.. I know it's a form of courtesy, but somehow it sounds so good. Heehee. OH and I saw EC!!!!!!!!!!! He came!!!!! YY overheard during the intermission someone saying that he would be coming, and he really did!!!! :) But he only came to the stage for a little while before leaving. :( And it was so brief, I didnt even have the chance to point him out to KL! argh. But it's ok! At least I managed to catch a glimpse of him. HAHA :) omg I sound so hua chi :P Aiyo...but i think really no more chance to see him anymore le...sighh...

We rushed back to the dressing room after that, and changed at a super fast speed. But with all the packing up and what-nots, we still took quite long. Sorry to those who waited for us!! Some of my family members and friends had already gone back by the time we came out. Aiyo... But STILL, many thanks to all friends who came!! Hope you guys enjoyed the concert :)) Casper, Jonathan, Zhi Hui, Chuan Zhi, Elain and bf, Kaijia and friend, Celia, Zhen Yue, Jenny, Hoi Ning and Gui Ping(Thx for being a superwoman, rushing here and there for the night! :)) Thanks for the flowers! :)

Actually have more things to say but not regarding the concert, so I shall leave it for the next post then. This is a superrrrr long post omg. I spent a loooong time typing all these out!! Like writing 5000 word essay can, hahaha.

Good night all!!

dizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzi

Today was a hectic day!!!! But here I am at 1.34am typing this entry. Just felt like coming here to leave some thoughts behind... :)

Went to school in the morning for 10am tutorial. So early!! ahaha, totally not used to going to school soo early. It ended early, went with gp and celia to the deck. Wanted to study for social psych mid term test, but in the end spent 45 mins trying to solve the problem with the CO concert tickets!! ARGH! When I met Elain yesterday to pass her the tickets, I actually gave her the wrong stack!!!! Gosh, how blur can I be! In the end, had to trouble her to come down all the way to redhill to meet me, and i had to go all the way up after my test! Sigh...This shows how you need to pay for carelessness. :( After meeting her, had to go back to school for full dress rehearsal, ended at 10plus, reached home near 12. Tired!

It will be the CO concert later!! (considering it's past 12am already.) Wow. So we've practiced for one year, all for this concert. Seems like such a long journey, yet it doesn't feel so. Honestly, I don't feel as if we've practiced alot. I guess I've been slacking too much during dazu and xiaozu! haha! And it doesn't help that there's no EC this year! (HAHA ok sorry i noe i've said this manyy times :P) And this year has definitely been more exciting, with more ups and downs. CO can be quite happening too yeah! Lol. Although some of the stuffs were not exactly happy, I've definitely laughed so much more, and enjoyed myself much more. All thanks to the suona ppl; I think they are really a group of humourous ppl to be around with!! :) They have livened up the atmosphere, and I think Zhang Lao Shi is really quite funny!! :D

I just feel, the atmosphere surrounding our dizi group is just...weird. Last year was more monotonous, but at least I didn't feel so...weird. I just don't know how to explain, and I'm not very clear how things became like this too. Sometimes we seem totally fine, and yet at times I feel as if we are all faking towards each other, not being totally honest with our true selves. Is it really so hard to be yourself?? I never really thought so much about this, until recently. And I realise, I am just not suited to be a faker. I don't feel good plastering a smile on my face and seeming as if i'm very friendly, when deep down inside I really don't feel like talking to the person. I'm not trying to infer anyone here, just talking in general terms yeah... I just wish that we can all be truthful to our feelings, like 就 like, dun like 就 dun like, why think so much, fake so much?

Ok la, sometimes I'll wonder if I've been thinking too much, if I should give people more chances. Afterall, I might not like a person's character, but that doesn't mean that I can't be friends with that person, right? We can be friends, just never good friends.

AIYO! I'm getting more and more confused as I type, haha, I think my brain really needs a good rest after the long day. Shall not deprive it of the sleep it needs! Signing off here.. Sayonara!! :)

罗志祥

Ahaha.. My mood was so bad when I was typing the previous entry, that I forgot to introduce my blog song!!! 罗志祥!!! WAHAHA!! It's worth a listen ok, dun shut the music off!! haha :D

It's called 幸福不灭, and was one of the songs played in 篮球火(Hotshot) which was a drama that Xiao Zhu acted in. The cast also includes Wu Chun and Jerry Yan Cheng Xu. Oh and Jiang Yi, she's HOT!! :) But the show's crap anw, tried to convince myself that it's nice(HAHA) but nah.. not really worth watching. Couldn't even be bothered to follow it. But ANW, I heard 幸福不灭 while watching one of the episodes, and I quite liked it. It caught my ears! Haha but I wonder if there's some biasness involved. Hoho.

The last line is very touching to me, probably cos it fitted into the storyline of the show too. But I can imagine how sad it would be to say that to someone that you like, yet how sweet it is too. You know that the person's happiness is not with you but another, so you let him/her go to find his/her happiness. How easy to say, yet hard to let go, eh?


没原因就是喜欢你
在初次相遇有重逢的心情
深呼吸让心动隐形
完美的爱情是无声的旋律

听我听你不确定的语气
等我等你放下你的犹豫
嘿如果你轻轻闭上眼睛
我会明白你做的决定

cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
祝福不用回音

没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴

你如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记

cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你

oh i believe cause i believe
那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星总会有发光的原因
oh i believe 你值得被珍惜
也值得我放弃

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Tata! Just finished printing my notes for tmr's lesson. Off to chiong my studying again!! Tests on thurs and fri!!! urgh!!!! Jia you to all for their mid-terms!!! GAMBATTE NEHHHHHHHH~~ :)

pissed.

SUPER PISSED OFF by my SL.

Time and again, he has lorded over us, like we are his pawns, up to him to use. We are not doormats for you to step over and over again OK.

Once. Fine I understand.
Twice. Buay song, don't cross my limits.
Thrice. WTH.

You give a crap reason, which I find totally invalid, and expect us to follow by YOUR rule. Yeah right. I'm not convinced, prove it to me. You value such senseless and ridiculous details over your members, I see the truth now. And not to forget, choose the part that you wish to play, and leave the yucky ones to us. Oh yeah, what a great way to solve the problem.

What irks me the most is not about playing the stupid note, is about the way you handle things. It's time to change the way you manage your members, or else you are going to lose all your supporters, one by one. Don't always give "I can't help it" look, and just sweep things away. We are not that simple-minded hor.

Now I feel stupid getting so pissed over a stupid note. And to let my mood get so affected. I hate to get angry, and I seldom get very angry at a person. But once you get into my blacklist, it's hard for me to "bleach" you back and treat you like we are still friends. I realised this from history.

Moral of the story: Don't get onto the wrong side of Scorpios. Especially females. We bite, ok?