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Today was a hectic day!!!! But here I am at 1.34am typing this entry. Just felt like coming here to leave some thoughts behind... :)

Went to school in the morning for 10am tutorial. So early!! ahaha, totally not used to going to school soo early. It ended early, went with gp and celia to the deck. Wanted to study for social psych mid term test, but in the end spent 45 mins trying to solve the problem with the CO concert tickets!! ARGH! When I met Elain yesterday to pass her the tickets, I actually gave her the wrong stack!!!! Gosh, how blur can I be! In the end, had to trouble her to come down all the way to redhill to meet me, and i had to go all the way up after my test! Sigh...This shows how you need to pay for carelessness. :( After meeting her, had to go back to school for full dress rehearsal, ended at 10plus, reached home near 12. Tired!

It will be the CO concert later!! (considering it's past 12am already.) Wow. So we've practiced for one year, all for this concert. Seems like such a long journey, yet it doesn't feel so. Honestly, I don't feel as if we've practiced alot. I guess I've been slacking too much during dazu and xiaozu! haha! And it doesn't help that there's no EC this year! (HAHA ok sorry i noe i've said this manyy times :P) And this year has definitely been more exciting, with more ups and downs. CO can be quite happening too yeah! Lol. Although some of the stuffs were not exactly happy, I've definitely laughed so much more, and enjoyed myself much more. All thanks to the suona ppl; I think they are really a group of humourous ppl to be around with!! :) They have livened up the atmosphere, and I think Zhang Lao Shi is really quite funny!! :D

I just feel, the atmosphere surrounding our dizi group is just...weird. Last year was more monotonous, but at least I didn't feel so...weird. I just don't know how to explain, and I'm not very clear how things became like this too. Sometimes we seem totally fine, and yet at times I feel as if we are all faking towards each other, not being totally honest with our true selves. Is it really so hard to be yourself?? I never really thought so much about this, until recently. And I realise, I am just not suited to be a faker. I don't feel good plastering a smile on my face and seeming as if i'm very friendly, when deep down inside I really don't feel like talking to the person. I'm not trying to infer anyone here, just talking in general terms yeah... I just wish that we can all be truthful to our feelings, like 就 like, dun like 就 dun like, why think so much, fake so much?

Ok la, sometimes I'll wonder if I've been thinking too much, if I should give people more chances. Afterall, I might not like a person's character, but that doesn't mean that I can't be friends with that person, right? We can be friends, just never good friends.

AIYO! I'm getting more and more confused as I type, haha, I think my brain really needs a good rest after the long day. Shall not deprive it of the sleep it needs! Signing off here.. Sayonara!! :)

罗志祥

Ahaha.. My mood was so bad when I was typing the previous entry, that I forgot to introduce my blog song!!! 罗志祥!!! WAHAHA!! It's worth a listen ok, dun shut the music off!! haha :D

It's called 幸福不灭, and was one of the songs played in 篮球火(Hotshot) which was a drama that Xiao Zhu acted in. The cast also includes Wu Chun and Jerry Yan Cheng Xu. Oh and Jiang Yi, she's HOT!! :) But the show's crap anw, tried to convince myself that it's nice(HAHA) but nah.. not really worth watching. Couldn't even be bothered to follow it. But ANW, I heard 幸福不灭 while watching one of the episodes, and I quite liked it. It caught my ears! Haha but I wonder if there's some biasness involved. Hoho.

The last line is very touching to me, probably cos it fitted into the storyline of the show too. But I can imagine how sad it would be to say that to someone that you like, yet how sweet it is too. You know that the person's happiness is not with you but another, so you let him/her go to find his/her happiness. How easy to say, yet hard to let go, eh?


没原因就是喜欢你
在初次相遇有重逢的心情
深呼吸让心动隐形
完美的爱情是无声的旋律

听我听你不确定的语气
等我等你放下你的犹豫
嘿如果你轻轻闭上眼睛
我会明白你做的决定

cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
祝福不用回音

没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴

你如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记

cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你

oh i believe cause i believe
那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星总会有发光的原因
oh i believe 你值得被珍惜
也值得我放弃

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Tata! Just finished printing my notes for tmr's lesson. Off to chiong my studying again!! Tests on thurs and fri!!! urgh!!!! Jia you to all for their mid-terms!!! GAMBATTE NEHHHHHHHH~~ :)