I'm here to blog!! Although I have an exam in *gasp* 16 hours time. Don't know why, but I found it so hard to concentrate while I was studying just now. Probably I have maxed out my attention span with all the intensive studying done these few days. Haha, just had the urge to turn on the com and just put aside my books. Though honestly, I HAVE NOT FINISHED STUDYING!!! arghhhh. The things that I've read just seem to keep slipping out of my brain, how to keep them inside!!! Tired ah, but no choice, still must continue to fight on. Si Hui is not a quitter ok! :))

Oh well, I'm counting on life to get better after tmr, hahaha. Can't wait to get rid of PL3238!!!Hopefully in the best way that I can. :)

Looking forward to 3rd dec!!!! whooooooooo~~~

study mode!

Handed in my last assignment of the semester on wednesday, WHOOHOO~~ But it is still a veryyyyy late deadline,eating into the reading week! sigh :( Spent alooot of time on it, but somehow i feel that it's not enough. I dunno, it's so scary to think about it.... But oh wells, it's done and handed in, nothing else I can do. :)

Bulk of the past week was like spent on the lab report, didnt really do much studying. I tried to study, but the assignment kept weighing on my mind. And now that I'm done with it, just feel like resting. Haha. Facebook was my companion for the past few days, kept playing the games there when I felt bored or when I needed a rest. I played nearly all the games that I had on the list, HAHA. Oh but the greatest thing was that I managed to talk to my cousin in Australia on fb, like yay! haha. I don't ever see her online, and we soooo seldom talk. Nvm she'll be back soon for the hols! :)

My exams are going to start next tues on the 24th nov, and I'm still struggling with the module. It's horribly boring, and I can't seem to understand it!! ARGH!!!! And the readings are freaking cheeeem, I wonder how am I going to make myself understand all of them and MEMORISE what they are talking about in erm, less than a week. And not to forget the other 3 mods that I have. shit.

Have said this countless times to ppl, especially during the exams, but anws, JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU

hahhaa hope you felt my sincerity :P

Byeee people! oh and let me intro one more niceeeeee song i heard recently! For those who are BOF fans, MUST watch the mv of the song k!!! :D
The song is 心墙 by 郭静, it's really quite nice! I love the lyrics, I think it was written by 郭静 herself. Am too lazy to change my blogsong, so those who are interested can just go youtube to listen. It's happy and a little inspiring, not emo anymore! haha.

你的心有一道墙
但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳
:)

emo momo

Yesterday was the last day of lessons for my Year 3 semester 1, travelled to and fro for 2 hours for a 1 and a half hour lecture. Haha. But no regrets la, I always enjoy ssa1201 lectures! I highly recommend friends to take this ss mod, erm if it is under the same lecturer; not sure about the other lecturers. :) He really made the lecturers interesting, and tries so hard to keep the humour going. The stuff that are taught are relevant to Spore, so it's really not that hard to understand. Just that probably everyone will score just as well, and it's back to square one agn. But well, at least the process of learning was fun. :)

I practically emo-ed all the time i was travelling yesterday, probably also cos it was raining and the day felt a little gloomy... But it's quite a shiok feeling, to plug in my ipod and just let my thoughts run.. haha :) There's like so many things to think about now, so many things that are still unknown. Honestly, I don't yet have any idea what to do after graduation, no idea what is the next step to take. AND, *shock*, it's only one semester away, half a year more to go. All the years of studying(and not studying) have brought me to where I am now, and I don't know what to do after that. All along, the path to take has always been clear. Primary, secondary, jc, uni. But, WHAT NEXT?? What should I do, what can I do, to find some enlightenment? But oh well, the best and only thing i can do at this moment is to mug mug mug, and do my best for the finals. jiayou ba!

Haha and emo-ing cannot miss out the *super hot* topic, that I've been sharing ALOT abt to my girlfriends, and apparently it is also the hottest topic amongst girls. hahaha! I didn't really think too much about these in the past, but ever since uni we definitely talked about this soooo much more! I guess all of us single ladies hope to find THE ONE, but it just doesn't seem so easy... It's really quite funny that we've been talking about this since year 1, but yet we are still here afterall. HMM. Sometimes I wonder if a have the ability to "lock" my heart, to the point that I can not like someone just by telling myself not to like. Haha. It probably sounds abit weird, but I've been thinking about it. Probably that I'm too rational about matters of the heart, and I'm too afraid of getting hurt. If I sense that the person has no interest, I can choose to shut off and not let myself get too deep. It's not about whether I want to or not, it's like a protection I have naturally. But as I was telling yy, it feels empty to not have anyone in your heart. Even if you loved and got hurt, it's a feeling; albeit not a comfortable one.

So maybe it's time to just open up my heart and..I dunno. Feel the feelings?? Hahaha. Aiya it's not as if I have a cold heart ok. I have a warmmmmmm heart! (LoL), just no one to share it with. yet. Have seen quite a few friends getting hurt, and it's really not a bed of roses. But oh well, if I don't even grow the roses, how can I lie on them? HAHAHA not trying to sound poetical or wad. Erm but, I still have the choice to choose la uh. Not planning to pounce on the next guy I meet. hahaha!

Wonder if I'm getting a little mushy here, but it's really quite enjoyable to share my thoughts here. Thinking through what to write and how to phrase is quite a enlightening process, and sometimes even I myself is surprised at what I share here. Things that I did not intend to write at first. Hmm writing can be quite a therapeutic process uh. :) Ok time to get back to (urgh) studies. Byee people! :))

Heard this on the teevee just now as I was halfway through this post. Not bad and quite emo.. :)

我愛誰 跨不過
從來也不覺得錯
自以為 抓著痛
就能往回憶裡躲
偏執相信著 受詛咒的水晶球
阻擋可能心動的理由

而你卻 靠近了 逼我們視線交錯
原地不動 或向前走 突然在意這分鐘
眼前荒沙瀰漫了等候
耳邊傳來孱弱的呼救
追趕要我愛的不保留

我身騎白馬 走三關
我改換素衣 過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想王寶釧

滿身傷痕累累 也來不及痛
那是指引我 走向你 的清楚感受
不管危不危險 都要放下一切 跟你走
只要 一起承擔
只要 你不放手

我身騎白馬 走三關
我改換素衣 過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想王寶釧

嘿～我改換素衣 過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想
王~寶~釧~

Am going to the dog farm with my family now to choose a dog.. WHOOHOO!!! :) Hahahah! Hope we manage to get one!! :DDDDD

I have alot of stuff that I want to update! But I don't know where to start from, hahaha! Am too lazy to upload pictures, so this shall be a photo-less entry!

Well, the first thing that I want to share about is my birthday party!! :) Had alot of fun, felt alot of love! :))) I rmb being told that holding one will be a memorable memory, and indeed! It will be a day that I will remember fondly of! The day started just like any other day, and I even had to give tuition at 930 in the morning! haha! My parents picked me up after that, and we went to have lunch followed by doing my hair. It's the first time in my entire life getting my hair done up so nicely, and I was honestly rather nervous!!!! Hahaha! I kept telling the hairstylist that I wanted sth simple, cos I was really afraid that I'll look weird with some new hairdo. When the hairstylist started to curl my hair, I remember going "oh shit". haha cos I felt that it made me look really mature, and I didn't want to look "auntyish"!!! The end result turned out quite alright though, and he started to do my fringe. He wanted to pin up my fringe in kj's old trademark "currypuff" style, but it made me look really really mature-ish! HAHA and my mum emphasised a few times to the hairstylist, I'm attending a birthday party, not getting MARRIED!!!Lol. I finally told the hairstylist that I wanted my fringe down, and I guess it was a right move. At least I didn't look that mature, and more like my age. And I don't look like a bride or wad. Hahaha! :P

Went to my grandma's place to set up and decorate the place, and I'm soo thankful to my family who helped me to decorate! The balloons kept bursting, guess they got quite a few shocks! Oh and many thanks to kj and cp who came down earlier to help me. Especially kj who was the first to come, and even lent me her speakers! Thanks girl! :)They decorated the guest book table so nicely!! :) The food was delivered on time, and there wasn't any problems there! Phew! One little hiccup for the night was that the food and drinks were not enough. :( SORRY!! Was expecting to be enough for everyone, but I think those who came later did not have alot to eat. And the drinks, although we had previously prepared 6 1.5 litres of root beer, it was still not enough! My mum had to go out to buy even more drinks back. But anw, it was still a great night I must say. Was really touched to see so many ppl turn up, especially the 3 smyc musketeers! haha. Really appreciate them for coming down even though we haven't met for quite some time, and even though 2 of them had a levels round the corner. :)

When everyone was singing happy birthday song for me, this feeling of happiness and 感动 crept over me. It felt really really good to have my family and friends there with me!!! :) I was really sweetly surprised by all the presents I received, didn't expect to receive soooo many! When I went back that night, the presents took up nearly the whole of the backseat of the car, leaving me with a teeny space to sit. That was how exaggerating it was! But it felt really shuang though, hahah :P Really love ALL my presents, it's the thought that counts!! Just hope that everyone was okay with the money spent, not too expensive or what. Hope it didn't burn a hole in their pockets!!

Thank you everyone who came that made it such a wonderful night for me! And the presents and cards! I super love to read messages that people write to me, I always find such notes and messages so precious. :) Thanks to Chui and gang for their HUGE bday "card"! Haha! It's sitting beside my bed now :) It was also great to receive wishes through sms and facebook, so nice of them to take the effort to wish me. There were a few others whom I did want to invite, but I wanted to keep the party small and simple. sorry! Writing up the guest list was not as easy as I thought!

Oh yeah anw the caterer that I ordered from that night was Four Seasons Catering, and I remember reading from somewhere that there's no affiliation with Four Seasons hotel. (pls correct me if I'm wrong!) But anw, received quite alot of compliments about the food, and everyone that I asked said that it was nice! The price was reasonable too, so I must say that it was a good choice! :) Anyone looking for caterers can consider them!

Went for SAA ceremony just now, it's going to be my first and only receiving an award in NUS! Haha! thanks to nusco for giving me the chance to experience this, hehe! :) Borrowed a black dress and a formal black jacket from wl, but didn't wear the jacket though. It wasn't thatttt formal I thought. I like her black dress! Simple yet elegant enough. I should get such a classic piece sometime soon, it's always useful to have a LBD in your wardrobe! There was this moment when I was listening to the "NUS Song", that I suddenly felt this sense of belonging to NUS. It has never really felt like a school that I belong to, but somehow at that touching moment, I felt this sense of belonging, and proud to be a student of NUS. :) It's moments like this that we need!

okk shall end this wordy post here! suddenly feel so hungry, haha! nighto!~~

before turning 21...

I want to quickly blog before I turn 21!! HAHA! In 15 mins time... One of the "landmarks" of one's life.. :) Actually I think it really depends. I guess to many people, it's just another day, the beginning of another new day. If not for the celebration that I'm going to have, I think I'll feel the same way too. Afterall, it's not as if I'm going to sprout out a pair of wings or change in any way right, haha!

20 has been quite a memorable year for me I guess, though just like any other years, with it's ups and downs. Had quite a few great experiences this year, events like going to Poland with NUSCO, finding my own volunteer work, going for a course alone, and definitely other things that I can't really recall at the moment, hehe. Think I've matured a little over this year, learnt a little more about life this year, experienced a little more about how LIFE should be about. :)

Hope that my 21st will be one filled with joy and laughter, and also so for family and friends around me!! :) I think being happy is really very important in life. Just simply being happy can help you to overcome many obstacles and roughness that you meet with. So always keep on smiling ok!! :)

Shan't write more, I want to post this before it strikes 12!! HAHAHA :P Looking forward to tmr, with a mixture nervousness, apprehensiveness, happiness, whatever-ness! hahah!


BYE 20, HELLO 21!
(:

to my dear fren...

My dear fren, this is for you :)

I know that you are feeling very down now, and I understand that it's not exactly an easy period for you. I really hope to cheer you up, but since I have totally no experience in this, have no idea what to say to make you feel better... Just want to let you know that you always have a fren here, call or text me anytime you need a listening ear(or finger) okay? :) 至少你曾经拥有过, treasure the memories that you have tgt with him yeah? :)

Hope that you will be able to find someone better, and whom you love just as much too! I'm sure you will be able to :) I bet so many guys are waiting by the side already, haha... No matter what, hope that you will find your next tree soon!

Keep on smiling okay? :)


“脚冷，心就不会凉”

Just a quick entry before i sleep.. Finished my role-playing as a client for the counselling course that I am taking, which marks the end of role-playing for me, and also kinda marks the end of the course. Only left with 2 more weeks, and lucky for me, I just have to watch the rest of the class "perform". :) Being the client wasn't really easy too, and thx to yy for her "supply" of the problem. Hope that things will work out fine for ur project!!

Was quite emotional as I was walking back from the course, as I thought back about the lessons that I've had there, and the people that I've met. Though I'm not close to any of them, and we probably won't even keep in contact, I must say that all of them are reall nice people. It felt like having lessons with a whole bunch of nice and friendly adults! I mean, people who are learning to help others can't be any bad right? Haha :) I really love the atmosphere of the lessons, always so relaxed yet interesting and funny at times. The things that some of them shared are probably not even things that they would share with their friends, and it's great that we trust one another enough to share. And of course there's the promise to secrecy, so I will def not pass on what they said to others. All of those that I managed to talk to were sooo nice, I didn't feel so bad taking the course alone. I'm glad that I managed to take a step out of my comfort zone to actually attend a course by myself! :) It has been a great learning process, and I def do not regret taking it. It's useful, just too basic to qualify as a counsellor. Taking this course has opened my mind to taking up counselling in future, am considering it now. :)

I received quite a few sweet and heart-warming replies to my invitations, and I feel really really happy!!! I am really glad to those who were nice enough to reply me, whether they can make it or not. Those that didn't reply, I have no idea whether they are unwilling to reply, or did they genuinely forget, but it just makes me treasure even more those who replied. Haha not trying to be mushy here :P Many many thanks to all those who have offered to help me, very sweet of you all, I really appreciate all the thoughts! :)

off to bed, gdnight earthlings!! :)

hope that things are gonna work out fine! :)

updated yayy!

Haven't fluttered here for a loooong time already... Lost the momentum and interest to blog i guess, haha. I always have random thoughts that pop up in my mind, and i'll tell myself "ok i'm gonna blog that down", but it just seems to flutter away after a while.. hahaha.

E-learning week felt like a mini holiday to me! I feel quite guilty about slacking, but it's shiok la! hahah! My uni frens will prob kill me if I tell them that, cos it seems like everyone else is so busy with work. hmmm. I keep double-checking and reconfirming that I have no term papers or presentations due soon, cos it really feels damn weird to have nothing much to do in the middle of the sem. Isn't this supposed to be the busiest part of the sem?! oh well, I just hope I won't realise that I missed the deadline of some assignment; nightmare! :x

Am recently planning for the BIG DAY that's coming soon, stress eh! haha. My family keep asking me what have I planned, how many ppl will I be inviting, blah. Actually, I haven't done anything much! Still in the midst of sending invites, and this process is already qte nerve-wrecking! I was wondering, what if everyone suddenly can't make it, and no one comes??? hahaha! scary thought ehhh!!!! (But I'm sure my frens won't do that to me right!!!!! hahahha :P)

Did my role-play for the counselling course that I'm attending, and it turned out better than I expected! :) It was super scary at first, to think of "presenting" in front of the class(ok just half of the class), having to play the role of a counsellor, with totally no idea what to expect. Lucky my "client" was a really nice one, and the case presented was not that tough. Hoho :) I was quite amazed, cos halfway through the role-play I felt myself so absorbed and concentrated on the "client" that I could forget that I was actually presenting. It was also good to watch and learn from the other students in class! Must say it was quite a good experience. Our teacher was really nice, she kept emphasising that it's not so much about right or wrong, or getting stuck, we are just all there to learn from each other. She was rather encouraging too, and the other classmates are quite nice! Next week I gotta be the "client", argh! Have to come up with a "case". The next 2 weeks after that will be slack!hehehe. Can sit back and watch the rest. phew!

Alrighty! Me shall leave this space for now. byeee!

Girl don't follow the crowd, you might get lost in it.......