emo momo

Yesterday was the last day of lessons for my Year 3 semester 1, travelled to and fro for 2 hours for a 1 and a half hour lecture. Haha. But no regrets la, I always enjoy ssa1201 lectures! I highly recommend friends to take this ss mod, erm if it is under the same lecturer; not sure about the other lecturers. :) He really made the lecturers interesting, and tries so hard to keep the humour going. The stuff that are taught are relevant to Spore, so it's really not that hard to understand. Just that probably everyone will score just as well, and it's back to square one agn. But well, at least the process of learning was fun. :)

I practically emo-ed all the time i was travelling yesterday, probably also cos it was raining and the day felt a little gloomy... But it's quite a shiok feeling, to plug in my ipod and just let my thoughts run.. haha :) There's like so many things to think about now, so many things that are still unknown. Honestly, I don't yet have any idea what to do after graduation, no idea what is the next step to take. AND, *shock*, it's only one semester away, half a year more to go. All the years of studying(and not studying) have brought me to where I am now, and I don't know what to do after that. All along, the path to take has always been clear. Primary, secondary, jc, uni. But, WHAT NEXT?? What should I do, what can I do, to find some enlightenment? But oh well, the best and only thing i can do at this moment is to mug mug mug, and do my best for the finals. jiayou ba!

Haha and emo-ing cannot miss out the *super hot* topic, that I've been sharing ALOT abt to my girlfriends, and apparently it is also the hottest topic amongst girls. hahaha! I didn't really think too much about these in the past, but ever since uni we definitely talked about this soooo much more! I guess all of us single ladies hope to find THE ONE, but it just doesn't seem so easy... It's really quite funny that we've been talking about this since year 1, but yet we are still here afterall. HMM. Sometimes I wonder if a have the ability to "lock" my heart, to the point that I can not like someone just by telling myself not to like. Haha. It probably sounds abit weird, but I've been thinking about it. Probably that I'm too rational about matters of the heart, and I'm too afraid of getting hurt. If I sense that the person has no interest, I can choose to shut off and not let myself get too deep. It's not about whether I want to or not, it's like a protection I have naturally. But as I was telling yy, it feels empty to not have anyone in your heart. Even if you loved and got hurt, it's a feeling; albeit not a comfortable one.

So maybe it's time to just open up my heart and..I dunno. Feel the feelings?? Hahaha. Aiya it's not as if I have a cold heart ok. I have a warmmmmmm heart! (LoL), just no one to share it with. yet. Have seen quite a few friends getting hurt, and it's really not a bed of roses. But oh well, if I don't even grow the roses, how can I lie on them? HAHAHA not trying to sound poetical or wad. Erm but, I still have the choice to choose la uh. Not planning to pounce on the next guy I meet. hahaha!

Wonder if I'm getting a little mushy here, but it's really quite enjoyable to share my thoughts here. Thinking through what to write and how to phrase is quite a enlightening process, and sometimes even I myself is surprised at what I share here. Things that I did not intend to write at first. Hmm writing can be quite a therapeutic process uh. :) Ok time to get back to (urgh) studies. Byee people! :))

Heard this on the teevee just now as I was halfway through this post. Not bad and quite emo.. :)

我愛誰 跨不過
從來也不覺得錯
自以為 抓著痛
就能往回憶裡躲
偏執相信著 受詛咒的水晶球
阻擋可能心動的理由

而你卻 靠近了 逼我們視線交錯
原地不動 或向前走 突然在意這分鐘
眼前荒沙瀰漫了等候
耳邊傳來孱弱的呼救
追趕要我愛的不保留

我身騎白馬 走三關
我改換素衣 過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想王寶釧

滿身傷痕累累 也來不及痛
那是指引我 走向你 的清楚感受
不管危不危險 都要放下一切 跟你走
只要 一起承擔
只要 你不放手

我身騎白馬 走三關
我改換素衣 過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想王寶釧

嘿～我改換素衣 過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想
王~寶~釧~