Friday, January 29, 2010

It's friday agn!!! yayy! :) Haha wanted to blog, but it's getting late and i'm tired to think.. just want to share a song that I was listening to on my ipod on the way to sch!! It's not a new song, but somehow the lyrics caught my ears, and I realise they are written quite well! The melody is niceeeeee too!!

全世界都停電 by Tank

連你都會殘忍隔絕 我的心能要誰了解

眼中燭光搖晃著熄滅

為何把我推向邊緣 被砸壞了的一切

卡住了我讓我無法往前

囚禁在距離笑聲最遠的房間

單獨隔離 寂寞地盤旋


全世界都停了電 全世界都封了街

我所有窗子外面 被貼上黑夜

我吶喊思念 卻沒人聽見

絕望到極點剩的是疲倦


全世界都停了電 全世界白雪滿天

才發覺在我心間 有回憶碎片

一作夢翻身 就刺痛流血

我卷著身體縮成一個圈 像一個句點


Listen ok! :)

Friday, January 22, 2010

It's my free day today, yayyy! :) I love the feeling of not having to go to school!! Somehow, this semester feels like a hectic and stressed one, hope that I will survive through it well!!!!

Went to Sentosa last Sunday with my family to check out the new hotels, they look good!! They were not done up well yet, so it's not really fair to judge, but i must say that they look potentially great!! Too bad we could only stand outside the casino, not allowed to go in. Oh but there's this room called "ATM hall" just outside the casino, which as you can guess, has all the different atms of banks in Singapore!!! HAHAHA imagine the amount of cash that would be transferred from here over to the casino, whoooooo... If only I could have 1% of the money, JUST 1% will do!!!! HAHAHA! After checking out the hotels, went to try the 4D magix game which we didn't manage to play the last time. Hahaha I think my uncle was really excited to try this :P It was FUN anw!!!!! Although a little scary, cos you never know wad to expect!! I screamed quite a few times, especially when the crabs came out, and when the bees came flying towards me!!!!!!!!!ahhhh!!!!!! hahah you gotta experience it to get what I'm saying, but I must say it's FUN!! :) It's a little ex though, $18 per person, for about 15 mins i think... There were 9 of us, so hmm you can imagine how much it cost...

Was actually very tired that day, as I had to wake up early in the morning to teach tuition at 8!!!! 8!!!!!!!So freaking early, but no choice as my tuition kid's family had to take some family photo thingy. Lucky my parents drove me there, or else I would have to wake up even earlier, confirm late!! :P When i reached my student's house, she was still brushing her teeth, and she looked totally like she just woke up, HAHAHAHA! Very cute and funny, cos she was like rushing around looking very blur!! I very nearly fell asleep at some points during the tuition, but i think i managed to stay awake; pure determination.

Iffffffff something didn't happen the previous night, I could have slept earlier, and I would probably have felt more awake!! HAHAHA! It was such an impromptu and sudden thing, I'm still a little amazed at what happened. (okok not as high as that night already!!!) For those of you who knows, you know. For those who doesn't know, you will know when the time is right!! hahaha! Don't worry, it nothing bad, and it's not about me!! :) Don't ask ok! will tell when it is ok to do so :) Honestly I thought I wouldn't be able to sleep that night, but I managed to in the end, too tired!! haa! I have no idea why was I so excited, super high lor! Aiya, just hope that I did do the right thing at that moment..

Tutorials are going to start next week!! Horrors of horrors, I'm going to have an 8am tutorial every tuesday!!! Really hope that I can be there on time, the teachers are really strict about punctuality :S It already seemed to be the best choice, compared to the other tutorial slots that were available to me. Will then have a break from 9-12, aloneeeeeeee!! :( Thanks to dear kj who offered to accompany me!! (HAHaha i know you will see this) If you can't it's really ok la, I can understand!! You can just meet me when you want to :) I really really appreciate it alooooooot!! thx my dear!! :)

Just feel a little overwhelmed, as my tuesdays will be reallyyyyyy long and packed!! EVERY WEEK! At least until the end of CO pracs. 8am tutorial, 12pm music tutorial, 3pm music lecture, and co prac at night all the way till 10. ARGHHH. my tuesdays are gonna be packed with music!! haha!!

Ooooook, moi shall make use of my free time now and go start studying! byeeeeeeeee people!!

Friday, January 15, 2010

aiya, have given up on my previous blogskin! I loved it, but somehow it never seems to appear nicely on the webpage. arghh :( Nvm, a new year, a new feel, a new beginning!! haha :)

Yesterday night seemed to be an emo momo night!!! Sighhs. Why does everything suddenly seem to be coming together now? And it seems that so many of my frens are a little down these days. I feel for them, but yet I can't seem to do anything to help them. I hope, just being there to lend a listening ear, a shoulder would at least make them feel better. And stupid me gets affected too; felt super emo yesterday. Plus some of the irritating things that are irritating me, ARGH! Somehow when I see my girlfriends being so hurt by guys (whether they meant it or not), it makes me feel scared. 可惜爱不是童话故事, uh? I sense the hurt from them, and I don't want to fall into the same situation as them... Of course, they might be nearer to happiness than me yeah!! :) HA oh well i think I'm not making sense anymore. wadevaaaaaaaaa.

Hope everything will start to move up from the lowest point yesterday!! :)) I'm just thankful that I know that there will always be people there willing to listen to me, just like how I would be willing to be there for my friends. :) Take care all my dearies out there, things gonna work out fine okay!! LOVE! <3

Saturday, January 9, 2010

I'm finally FINALLY going to update!! hahaha :P Actually I've been wanting to, but just been lazy and procrastinating hahaha! I started another entry like weeks ago, but haven't gotten down to completing it..will post it up when it's done ahhaa, i predict it'll be damnnn long!

Anw, so this will be my first post for 2010!!! :) Being the cliche me, i shall still wish everyone reading a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! muahaha! All the best to everyone, may it be a blasting, fantabulous, marvellous, wonderful, fun-filled and happy year for you!!!! :) AND ME!!!! :)) HAHAHA :D

So fast, the holidays are going to end! boohoo :( And I'll be onto my GRADUATING sem. Would you believe it??? I can't!!!!! GRADUATING SEM!!! OMGOMGOMGOMG!! :(( The future feels so uncertain that I don't even want to think about it. Am just going to take one step at a time, at a pace that I will be comfortable with. I panic each time someone asks me what I'm planning to do after graduating, and believe me, i get ALOT of that. The panic level increases a little bit each time, it gets higher and higher and HIGHERRRRR. I really gotta spend this sem thinking hard abt the future, and start doing something. may good luck shine on me!!!!!! :)

This hols was great!! Enriching and fulfilling I would say :) The things done, the friendships forged, the experiences, whoo! :) I'm loving it! Need to rest soon to wake up early for tuition tmr, so shall not talk too much now. Next post!! hahaha :P

Yayyy I'm no longer wasting cy's 5 secs and kl's 6 secs!!!HAHAHAH!! and you guys won't be disappointed anymore!! :D

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Only one more paper to go!!!!!! can't wait!!!!!! :))

Went Teo Heng ktv with gp and sx just now, totally felt like after exams le lor, HAHA! Had FUNNNN but super tired now.. And my throat feels so dry and parched :X I like impromptu events, muahaha! :)

For those who knows him, fluffy is at my house now!! Haha :)) He will be staying till thursday i think. Superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr cute, LOVE LOVE! hahaha!



just one last dance, before we say goodbye...

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

本小姐看开了!!!看得很开很开了!!!ha. ha. ha.

也是因为,没有选择了啦。。。

有时候,或许真的是自己给的压力最可怕。


Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I'm here to blog!! Although I have an exam in *gasp* 16 hours time. Don't know why, but I found it so hard to concentrate while I was studying just now. Probably I have maxed out my attention span with all the intensive studying done these few days. Haha, just had the urge to turn on the com and just put aside my books. Though honestly, I HAVE NOT FINISHED STUDYING!!! arghhhh. The things that I've read just seem to keep slipping out of my brain, how to keep them inside!!! Tired ah, but no choice, still must continue to fight on. Si Hui is not a quitter ok! :))

Oh well, I'm counting on life to get better after tmr, hahaha. Can't wait to get rid of PL3238!!!Hopefully in the best way that I can. :)

Looking forward to 3rd dec!!!! whooooooooo~~~

Friday, November 20, 2009

study mode!

Handed in my last assignment of the semester on wednesday, WHOOHOO~~ But it is still a veryyyyy late deadline,eating into the reading week! sigh :( Spent alooot of time on it, but somehow i feel that it's not enough. I dunno, it's so scary to think about it.... But oh wells, it's done and handed in, nothing else I can do. :)

Bulk of the past week was like spent on the lab report, didnt really do much studying. I tried to study, but the assignment kept weighing on my mind. And now that I'm done with it, just feel like resting. Haha. Facebook was my companion for the past few days, kept playing the games there when I felt bored or when I needed a rest. I played nearly all the games that I had on the list, HAHA. Oh but the greatest thing was that I managed to talk to my cousin in Australia on fb, like yay! haha. I don't ever see her online, and we soooo seldom talk. Nvm she'll be back soon for the hols! :)

My exams are going to start next tues on the 24th nov, and I'm still struggling with the module. It's horribly boring, and I can't seem to understand it!! ARGH!!!! And the readings are freaking cheeeem, I wonder how am I going to make myself understand all of them and MEMORISE what they are talking about in erm, less than a week. And not to forget the other 3 mods that I have. shit.

Have said this countless times to ppl, especially during the exams, but anws, JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU

hahhaa hope you felt my sincerity :P

Byeee people! oh and let me intro one more niceeeeee song i heard recently! For those who are BOF fans, MUST watch the mv of the song k!!! :D
The song is 心墙 by 郭静, it's really quite nice! I love the lyrics, I think it was written by 郭静 herself. Am too lazy to change my blogsong, so those who are interested can just go youtube to listen. It's happy and a little inspiring, not emo anymore! haha.

你的心有一道墙
但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳
:)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

emo momo

Yesterday was the last day of lessons for my Year 3 semester 1, travelled to and fro for 2 hours for a 1 and a half hour lecture. Haha. But no regrets la, I always enjoy ssa1201 lectures! I highly recommend friends to take this ss mod, erm if it is under the same lecturer; not sure about the other lecturers. :) He really made the lecturers interesting, and tries so hard to keep the humour going. The stuff that are taught are relevant to Spore, so it's really not that hard to understand. Just that probably everyone will score just as well, and it's back to square one agn. But well, at least the process of learning was fun. :)

I practically emo-ed all the time i was travelling yesterday, probably also cos it was raining and the day felt a little gloomy... But it's quite a shiok feeling, to plug in my ipod and just let my thoughts run.. haha :) There's like so many things to think about now, so many things that are still unknown. Honestly, I don't yet have any idea what to do after graduation, no idea what is the next step to take. AND, *shock*, it's only one semester away, half a year more to go. All the years of studying(and not studying) have brought me to where I am now, and I don't know what to do after that. All along, the path to take has always been clear. Primary, secondary, jc, uni. But, WHAT NEXT?? What should I do, what can I do, to find some enlightenment? But oh well, the best and only thing i can do at this moment is to mug mug mug, and do my best for the finals. jiayou ba!

Haha and emo-ing cannot miss out the *super hot* topic, that I've been sharing ALOT abt to my girlfriends, and apparently it is also the hottest topic amongst girls. hahaha! I didn't really think too much about these in the past, but ever since uni we definitely talked about this soooo much more! I guess all of us single ladies hope to find THE ONE, but it just doesn't seem so easy... It's really quite funny that we've been talking about this since year 1, but yet we are still here afterall. HMM. Sometimes I wonder if a have the ability to "lock" my heart, to the point that I can not like someone just by telling myself not to like. Haha. It probably sounds abit weird, but I've been thinking about it. Probably that I'm too rational about matters of the heart, and I'm too afraid of getting hurt. If I sense that the person has no interest, I can choose to shut off and not let myself get too deep. It's not about whether I want to or not, it's like a protection I have naturally. But as I was telling yy, it feels empty to not have anyone in your heart. Even if you loved and got hurt, it's a feeling; albeit not a comfortable one.

So maybe it's time to just open up my heart and..I dunno. Feel the feelings?? Hahaha. Aiya it's not as if I have a cold heart ok. I have a warmmmmmm heart! (LoL), just no one to share it with. yet. Have seen quite a few friends getting hurt, and it's really not a bed of roses. But oh well, if I don't even grow the roses, how can I lie on them? HAHAHA not trying to sound poetical or wad. Erm but, I still have the choice to choose la uh. Not planning to pounce on the next guy I meet. hahaha!

Wonder if I'm getting a little mushy here, but it's really quite enjoyable to share my thoughts here. Thinking through what to write and how to phrase is quite a enlightening process, and sometimes even I myself is surprised at what I share here. Things that I did not intend to write at first. Hmm writing can be quite a therapeutic process uh. :) Ok time to get back to (urgh) studies. Byee people! :))

Heard this on the teevee just now as I was halfway through this post. Not bad and quite emo.. :)

我愛誰 跨不過
從來也不覺得錯
自以為 抓著痛
就能往回憶裡躲
偏執相信著 受詛咒的水晶球
阻擋可能心動的理由

而你卻 靠近了 逼我們視線交錯
原地不動 或向前走 突然在意這分鐘
眼前荒沙瀰漫了等候
耳邊傳來孱弱的呼救
追趕要我愛的不保留

我身騎白馬 走三關
我改換素衣 過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想王寶釧

滿身傷痕累累 也來不及痛
那是指引我 走向你 的清楚感受
不管危不危險 都要放下一切 跟你走
只要 一起承擔
只要 你不放手

我身騎白馬 走三關
我改換素衣 過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想王寶釧

嘿~我改換素衣 過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想
王~寶~釧~

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Am going to the dog farm with my family now to choose a dog.. WHOOHOO!!! :) Hahahah! Hope we manage to get one!! :DDDDD