这个学期，感觉自己有成长了。
以前会生气的事，现在不会了。
以前会发脾气的事，现在不会了。
以前会complain的事，现在不会了。
以前不会想的事，现在会了。 ：）

或许是因为要毕业了吧，总感觉自己的心境一直在改变。。。说真的，毕业的感觉不好！！ ：（ 很茫然，很没有方向感。 有时候真的觉得很慌，很慌，很慌！！！！真的好想现在看到自己五年后会在哪里，做什么。。。。

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don't ask me why did i suddenly type in chinese, i have no idea too..hahah just had the urge suddenly. Is that even my first time typing in chinese? hahaha but somehow typing in chinese gives me the emo feel, i guess chinese words hold more meaning than mere alphabets :)

I actually had alot of things that I wanted to type here, but they have just seemed to fly outta my head. BLANK. maybe i shld just come back here another time when I've thought of them, ahaha! Anw have a tutorial tmr at 8am, and it's almost 1am now already! prob my brain's hinting to me to hit the sack, haha. shall follow the hint then, gdnites all!!!! (: have sweet dreams ok!

Hahaha just a short update!! this week is busyyyyy, will find time to update after everything ok! (: Recess week just passed by in a flash!! CNY was fun i guess, but busy too! Had to do report, and mug for mid terms... To all those still reading this, GOOD LUCK for your midterms and assignments!! Jiayou jiayou!! :))

Weather's been SUPER DUPER HOT these days!! arghhh! make me feel so warm and uncomfortable! Hope it starts to turn cool soooooon.

Ohh and Fluffy went home on saturday :(((((( After about a month!! I miss him!!! He soooooo lovable <3<3<3 think my friends will also agree right! *wink* haha alrighty gotta zoom off to study for PID test on wed! argh!


this feeling's just so weird

My holidays have officially started!!! Yeahh, HOLIDAYS... so annoying that our recess week is falling on the chinese new year period!!! grrrrr!! have to study for midterms, do project, and term reports!!!! abit dampening to the festive mood!! But oh well shall still enjoy CNY!! :D i super loveee the feel of CNY, the whole country always seems to be so jolly and happy heh heh :))

Stayed over at kj's room on tuesday after dazu with cp and yy, we did BAKING!!! :DD my (sorta) maiden attempt at baking, if you don't consider home econs in sec sch last time la hahaha. We started ard 10 plus, only finished at 5am!!!!!!!! superrrrrrr tiring!!! It started out really fun and enjoyable, but I really got so tired after about 3am, it wasn't that fun already! hahaha! aiya but it was fun doing with the girls, with alot of funny incidents happening here and there! lol! but i guess we all agree that baking is an UNGLAM thing to do wahahaha! i think we really looked so shagged by 5am! we only managed to talk a little bit and we went off to bed! I think i fell asleep once my head touched the pillow HAHAHA :)) was supposed to meet jf at 1130 to donate blood, but really couldnt manage to wake up on time. SORRY!!!! Anw am so proud of our end products!! they are really not the best, and definitely not perfect, but they are made with love by us hoho!! :)) Didn't really manage to make alot to go ard all my frens though, and i regret not thinking abt bringing nice packaging to pack the cookies nicely to give others!! :(( nvm if we do bake another time (hahahaha!) i will prepare nice packaging to give to others!! :)) got some compliments about the end products though, yayy! :)

I finally went with jf to donate blood today!! :) FINALLY!! oh to digress abit, i learnt sth new today!! all cabs charge the same, except those that are BLACK in colour! they are the more high class ones, so DONT take! no point!! oh well, it was an expensive lesson though, cos I overslept today past the time that i was supposed to leave hse, so decided to cab down to sch!! :( When i went to the taxi stand, there were no cabs there. all of a sudden this toyota wish cab reversed from i dunno where, and parked right in front of me. (It's those kind of 7-seater cab anw). I didn't dare to get up, cos I was really scared that it would be more expensive! Then i pretended not to see it HAHAHA, and i could sense the taxi driver looking at me, until the guy behind me was like "errr excuse me, u can get on the taxi". I was asking him whether there's extra charge and he was saying that it should just be normal cab fare. Decided to double check with the driver, and he told me too that yeaa his is just normal cab fare charge LOL. The nice taxi driver told me that all cabs have the same charge, except for the totally black ones. I think mercedes cab only charges like a few cents more upon getting on the cab, and that's all right? ohhh and i also learnt that the surcharge is from 7am to 930am frm monday to friday! so yeahh i had to pay 35% of the taxi fare cos i got on the taxi ard 9.. SIGH. money flew out of my pocket due to my bad habit of not waking up AGN. ok wow that was a long digression HAHAHA!

so! met jf at mpsh 4, and it was brave jf's first time donating!!! :)) I rmb i was so nervous on my first attempt. lucky there was cy with me at that time! and elvin ng HAHAHAHA! :P so glad that everything went smoothly for the both of us, and jf was so BRAVE to continue with donating even though the nurse told her tt it's likely tt her hand would be bruised, and she can choose to donate 3 weeks later instead. awwww so nice uh! :) and we were saying that one of the side effects of donating blood was neck aches!!! HAHAHAHA okok just a joke that only both of knows la uh, joking la, not true ok!!! :D I always feel the satisfaction after donating, although it's only the 2nd time i've done it. Will prob try to donate at the blood banks next time, it feels good to know that you can save life by doing a simple deed! :)) amazing!

tmr there will be ppl coming my hse to do some fibre point thingy in my home, hmm it's supposed to be an upgrade to the current broadband to "ultra-high speed network"! haha... not really sure abt it but i guess everyone will start getting the mail frm the govt, so watch out for it yeah! The installation's free now, so if you dont sign up within the given time period, you will need to pay for it in future!

okok off to enjoy my hols! hahah :))

Life's been rather boring lately, just school and lessons..oh and FLUFFY!!! hahaha! He's over at my house now, sooooooo freaking cute!! Uncle's in vietnam, so fluffy's only going home on sunday. But i think he's coming over during chinese new year again, so yayy! :)) ohh fluffy LOVESSSS to drink HL milk, everytime i take the carton out from the fridge he jumps around in circles NON-STOP, and makes those excited noises. HAHAHAHA damn cute! So I can't drink it without him drinking it too, when you sense his excitement you just can't bear not giving it to him. LOL. (but anw, my mum bought the milk specially for him and not me!! pffffft AHAHAHAHAHA!)

Went to watch Puccini's La Boheme yesterday night at Esplanade, it's an italian opera! Haha I went for it for the sake of writing up the music report for my music mod; was rather hesitant at first cos it's honestly not the genre that I would usually watch. It was only because the lecturers wanted us to watch sth exotic, concerts that we wouldn't usually choose to go for. Went tgt with yy, and haha thanks to her for being rather insistent on watching it? hahaha :P Anw it was an enjoyable experience, and i really enjoyed the show!! It's an opera with 4 acts, so it's like a musical, with people acting and singing. Was afraid that I wouldn't be able to appreciate the opera singing at first, but surprisingly I liked their singings! hehehe :) There were english and mandarin subtitles, to help the audience follow through the whole play. The story was simple though a little cliche, the typical sad love story. I would give it a 8.5/10! There were just some parts that went through a little fast, and I couldn't really get what was happening. But i'm glad we stepped out of our "comfort zone" to watch something more exotic! Makes me more acceptable of different genres of concerts now, so I guess the report did serve it's use! hahah! :)

Will be taking a 全家福 photoshoot with my extended family on saturday, am looking forward to it!! Still wondering if I should temporarily curl my hair, do sth a little different? Just worried that the effect would not turn out nice, and would spoil the picture instead. HMMM i'll see how! My uncle keeps emphasizing on the importance of this photoshoot, cos it's one of the biggest wishes of my ah ma :)) Yayy we can finally fulfil it!! It going to be one big precious photo, can't wait to see the final photo!! :D Hope I can look my very best that day! wheee!

Have class later at 4, byeeee! listen to my blog song OKKKKK!!! hahaha :D

It's friday agn!!! yayy! :) Haha wanted to blog, but it's getting late and i'm tired to think.. just want to share a song that I was listening to on my ipod on the way to sch!! It's not a new song, but somehow the lyrics caught my ears, and I realise they are written quite well! The melody is niceeeeee too!!

全世界都停電 by Tank

連你都會殘忍隔絕 我的心能要誰了解

眼中燭光搖晃著熄滅

為何把我推向邊緣 被砸壞了的一切

卡住了我讓我無法往前

囚禁在距離笑聲最遠的房間

單獨隔離 寂寞地盤旋


全世界都停了電 全世界都封了街

我所有窗子外面 被貼上黑夜

我吶喊思念 卻沒人聽見

絕望到極點剩的是疲倦


全世界都停了電 全世界白雪滿天

才發覺在我心間 有回憶碎片

一作夢翻身 就刺痛流血

我卷著身體縮成一個圈 像一個句點

Listen ok! :)

It's my free day today, yayyy! :) I love the feeling of not having to go to school!! Somehow, this semester feels like a hectic and stressed one, hope that I will survive through it well!!!!

Went to Sentosa last Sunday with my family to check out the new hotels, they look good!! They were not done up well yet, so it's not really fair to judge, but i must say that they look potentially great!! Too bad we could only stand outside the casino, not allowed to go in. Oh but there's this room called "ATM hall" just outside the casino, which as you can guess, has all the different atms of banks in Singapore!!! HAHAHA imagine the amount of cash that would be transferred from here over to the casino, whoooooo... If only I could have 1% of the money, JUST 1% will do!!!! HAHAHA! After checking out the hotels, went to try the 4D magix game which we didn't manage to play the last time. Hahaha I think my uncle was really excited to try this :P It was FUN anw!!!!! Although a little scary, cos you never know wad to expect!! I screamed quite a few times, especially when the crabs came out, and when the bees came flying towards me!!!!!!!!!ahhhh!!!!!! hahah you gotta experience it to get what I'm saying, but I must say it's FUN!! :) It's a little ex though, $18 per person, for about 15 mins i think... There were 9 of us, so hmm you can imagine how much it cost...

Was actually very tired that day, as I had to wake up early in the morning to teach tuition at 8!!!! 8!!!!!!!So freaking early, but no choice as my tuition kid's family had to take some family photo thingy. Lucky my parents drove me there, or else I would have to wake up even earlier, confirm late!! :P When i reached my student's house, she was still brushing her teeth, and she looked totally like she just woke up, HAHAHAHA! Very cute and funny, cos she was like rushing around looking very blur!! I very nearly fell asleep at some points during the tuition, but i think i managed to stay awake; pure determination.

Iffffffff something didn't happen the previous night, I could have slept earlier, and I would probably have felt more awake!! HAHAHA! It was such an impromptu and sudden thing, I'm still a little amazed at what happened. (okok not as high as that night already!!!) For those of you who knows, you know. For those who doesn't know, you will know when the time is right!! hahaha! Don't worry, it nothing bad, and it's not about me!! :) Don't ask ok! will tell when it is ok to do so :) Honestly I thought I wouldn't be able to sleep that night, but I managed to in the end, too tired!! haa! I have no idea why was I so excited, super high lor! Aiya, just hope that I did do the right thing at that moment..

Tutorials are going to start next week!! Horrors of horrors, I'm going to have an 8am tutorial every tuesday!!! Really hope that I can be there on time, the teachers are really strict about punctuality :S It already seemed to be the best choice, compared to the other tutorial slots that were available to me. Will then have a break from 9-12, aloneeeeeeee!! :( Thanks to dear kj who offered to accompany me!! (HAHaha i know you will see this) If you can't it's really ok la, I can understand!! You can just meet me when you want to :) I really really appreciate it alooooooot!! thx my dear!! :)

Just feel a little overwhelmed, as my tuesdays will be reallyyyyyy long and packed!! EVERY WEEK! At least until the end of CO pracs. 8am tutorial, 12pm music tutorial, 3pm music lecture, and co prac at night all the way till 10. ARGHHH. my tuesdays are gonna be packed with music!! haha!!

Ooooook, moi shall make use of my free time now and go start studying! byeeeeeeeee people!!

aiya, have given up on my previous blogskin! I loved it, but somehow it never seems to appear nicely on the webpage. arghh :( Nvm, a new year, a new feel, a new beginning!! haha :)

Yesterday night seemed to be an emo momo night!!! Sighhs. Why does everything suddenly seem to be coming together now? And it seems that so many of my frens are a little down these days. I feel for them, but yet I can't seem to do anything to help them. I hope, just being there to lend a listening ear, a shoulder would at least make them feel better. And stupid me gets affected too; felt super emo yesterday. Plus some of the irritating things that are irritating me, ARGH! Somehow when I see my girlfriends being so hurt by guys (whether they meant it or not), it makes me feel scared. 可惜爱不是童话故事, uh? I sense the hurt from them, and I don't want to fall into the same situation as them... Of course, they might be nearer to happiness than me yeah!! :) HA oh well i think I'm not making sense anymore. wadevaaaaaaaaa.

Hope everything will start to move up from the lowest point yesterday!! :)) I'm just thankful that I know that there will always be people there willing to listen to me, just like how I would be willing to be there for my friends. :) Take care all my dearies out there, things gonna work out fine okay!! LOVE! <3

I'm finally FINALLY going to update!! hahaha :P Actually I've been wanting to, but just been lazy and procrastinating hahaha! I started another entry like weeks ago, but haven't gotten down to completing it..will post it up when it's done ahhaa, i predict it'll be damnnn long!

Anw, so this will be my first post for 2010!!! :) Being the cliche me, i shall still wish everyone reading a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! muahaha! All the best to everyone, may it be a blasting, fantabulous, marvellous, wonderful, fun-filled and happy year for you!!!! :) AND ME!!!! :)) HAHAHA :D

So fast, the holidays are going to end! boohoo :( And I'll be onto my GRADUATING sem. Would you believe it??? I can't!!!!! GRADUATING SEM!!! OMGOMGOMGOMG!! :(( The future feels so uncertain that I don't even want to think about it. Am just going to take one step at a time, at a pace that I will be comfortable with. I panic each time someone asks me what I'm planning to do after graduating, and believe me, i get ALOT of that. The panic level increases a little bit each time, it gets higher and higher and HIGHERRRRR. I really gotta spend this sem thinking hard abt the future, and start doing something. may good luck shine on me!!!!!! :)

This hols was great!! Enriching and fulfilling I would say :) The things done, the friendships forged, the experiences, whoo! :) I'm loving it! Need to rest soon to wake up early for tuition tmr, so shall not talk too much now. Next post!! hahaha :P

Yayyy I'm no longer wasting cy's 5 secs and kl's 6 secs!!!HAHAHAH!! and you guys won't be disappointed anymore!! :D

Only one more paper to go!!!!!! can't wait!!!!!! :))

Went Teo Heng ktv with gp and sx just now, totally felt like after exams le lor, HAHA! Had FUNNNN but super tired now.. And my throat feels so dry and parched :X I like impromptu events, muahaha! :)

For those who knows him, fluffy is at my house now!! Haha :)) He will be staying till thursday i think. Superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr cute, LOVE LOVE! hahaha!



just one last dance, before we say goodbye...

本小姐看开了！！！看得很开很开了！！！ha. ha. ha.

也是因为，没有选择了啦。。。

有时候，或许真的是自己给的压力最可怕。